oh what a week..day trip to halifax, italien food,movies,late nights,weddings and sleepovers.
And with alll that fun i havn't had time to think about camp yet...let alone pack..it 's the night before and the only thing i've packed is my bible and socks.

So it's final the plane tickets bought i leave august 2 for winnipeg and come back on the 30th

Why the world needs superman...

if the world had superman then many of the events of last night wouldn't of happend.
so my amigo Genna and i head out to go see the movie nacho libre and 9:15 . We arrive there at 8 and promptly change our minds about the movie we want to see. we both wanted to go to the superman movie but i was being cheap and wanted to use my cupon. So she buy our tickets to superman that shows at 10:00. so we're there 2 hours early. So we head to the balkbarn and buy all the candy my 5 bucks will get us. then we hop over to the pet store and look at all the pets we want to take home..but can't..in a few mins we get kicked out cause it's closing time. so we to mcdonald's then back to ther theater.still early but thats ok..we go and watch all the previews. so the superman movie was amazing! or as genna says "bloody awsome"so the movie gets out at 12:30 and thats when we discover that not just saint john's weather suck but also the city bus system.So at quater to 1 in the morning genna and i are stuck on the east side and we need to get uptown..happy Birthday to me.. eventually we become desprate and ask a group of compleat strangers if we can get a rise home with them...that didn't work. So we start to walk. And this is a message to JEN FRY....That e-mail you sent us caused us to stop at the corner cause we were too paraniod.So we called a cab praying that we could run in to her grandparents house and grap some money to pay.the cab ride home was a fun time with the loud uncencored rap music haha. We ended up paying the guy with mostly nickles and dimes. Good times

oh what a wonderful day. my sister gave me a guitar for my birthday And my best friend whom i havn't seen in a year may be coming down thursday.woot.

Granola bars float. My morning in the sticks

So my plan for the day was to go up to oak point and pick some strawberries to make so cash.So my dad drove me up cause he had to do a funeral anyway, but we were running really late and we couldn't find the place i was looking for. But missing out on the strawberries was the least of my worries...My dad was getting really late so we were going 120 and passing trucks in no passing places. It could of been more scary but i've gotten used to it over the years haha. Any way we can't find the place so my dad drops me off at the end of the road in oak point and says see ya later.so i pace around trying to get a signal on the cell phone to call my friend genna who lives a couple miles down the road. No answer.So i start walking. To where?how far?for what reason? None of those i can answer but i just walk. i thought about hitchinking home but then i realised that there were practically no cars anyway.as i'm walking over a little bridge i realise that i don't have to walk on the road..so i hop the gard rail and wade into the creek.the water was beautiful so i keep walking promising myself that i won't go past my knees..2 feet later i'm so far in the brush that i can't see the road any more..we've all heard the saying "curiosity killed the cat".well in theis case the cat got very wet.but soaked to the bone i keep walking and thats when i find it ..the perfect place. It was a fallen tree over the river and it was calling my name to come sit on it. So i climb onto then eat my lunch..Granola bars float.Then i was so tired that i decided to have a nap. So i lie down on the tree hoping that i don't roll in to the water. Evebtually i think it's time to go back but a tree that special can't me nameless so i name him mortimer and i name the tree beside him ursala so he won't be lonely. heading back i see it..another wonderful tree.it was a perfect climbing tree that leans out over the water. i had to practcally swim to get to it but i was worth it. And of course a tree this wonderful but have a name but not just a first name but a last name also..Mr Harvey F. Wentworth. yes tha is what i named the tree.so then i climb back onto the road and stick out my thumb..the car that i saw in the distance turned out to be my father..he thought i knew it was him haha.

Here are some Love freddy'ton / TEC photos

ok so i'm not much of a poet but i wrote this watching an amazing sunset on the tower of the camp medley warfe. so here goes. The word Beauty can also be replaced by love. actually..i think i like it better that way.Any way tell me what you think.

True beauty

Now this is what true beauty is,
not something you see
not something you hear
nor something you feel
it's something you know
for true beauty dosn't hide
or remain silent
or come and go.
true beauty stands up,
waves it's arms and screams
"here i am , look at me"
not in a rude or arragent way
but gently and peacfully, yet bold
and i know this
i didn't find it
nor stumble upon it ,
for it was never hidden,
but it was given to me.
put in my hand .
A gift that will never be taken away.
I know that there is true beauty in you.

some random things that you may or may not want to know about me

-I love the rain
-i have a brother and a sister
-i have people in my life that are like brothers to me
-i wish i had are grand parents as i have none
-i have gone to 6 diffrent schools
-i dream every night and remeber All my dreams.
-i didn't talk till i was three
-i love chessecake
-i only see my best friend once a year for a few days yet it sometimes seems like we havn't been apart
-i have a weird taste in music including jazz, rock and regga but not limited to those
-i have abnormally flexable joints in my hands
-i feel like i can relate to soloman when he wrote eccleciastes
-i used to live in an amish farming village
-then i moved to the lower west side of saint john
- have all my pogs
-i carry a lighter but never smoke
-i hate staying in one town for too long
-i rode a bike the same year as i started talking
-i hate romeo and juliet
-infact the only character i like in the whole thing is mercutio
-but i respect shakespeare
-i write on my hands alot.
i like snow untill the end of january
-i have been in a fist fight
-have never been to the centre of the earth
-sometimes i can be a bit weird
-i have set myself one fire many times
-I miss someone very much right now
-I've laid on my back and watched cloud shapes go by for many hours
-I have flown many a kite
-i love puddles
-i've thrown flaming paper bags in to the saint john harbor
-i've had a few secret bonfirs in the volly ball courts
-i've gone up and down the escaltors in brunswick square 26 times without stopping pretending to be "rent a cops"
-i love the fall because you get to jump in leaves
- I have fallen asleep at school
-my fav place is the top pilliar of the medley wharfe and newyork city
-I won coloring contests
-i've been in car accedents
-i've had braces
-i've had to many heros
-i saw a stabbing when i was 9 (t wasn't big)
-i have 3 "thinking spots"
-one a big rock that over looks a pond
-one is a tree trunk on the edge of a brook
-and the other ( i know is slightly dangerous) about 20 feet up on one of the power lines over looking the river valley
-i've been on the top of the empire state building
-I have deja vu all the time and i have deja vu of having deja vu
-i love post it notes
-I have made too many prank phone calls and have accedentaly called 911 3 times
-I have written letters to Santa Claus
-i have written letters to a ground hog named Wiarton Willie
-when i was a kid i used to chew on the tips of markers
-i sing in the shower
-i like fire
-i can sit for hours without getting bored
-i used to talk on the phone for hours but now i barley talk on the phone at all
-i painted one of my shoes green
-once my shoes start "talking" i name them
-if i start to think or day dream i often forget to eat.
-i have a large scar on my sholder
-my fav smell is cocnut
-i do not have a prized possesion
-i'm afraid of crowds
-i don't like chickens
-i once tracked a 5 doller bill using www.whereswilly.com
- at home i'm not usally called erin...i'm called grace
-sometimes i wonder why my parent named me erin if there only going to use my middle name
-i love to paint and to draw neither i'm very good at
- i could do this for hours ..but i won't
-i once stuck my finger in a light socut and got an eletric shock and fell off my counter
-i love coffee with 1 suger and half a milk.
-i can drink my coffee with less or more suger or black but i can't stand having too much milk
-i don't belive in love at first sight
-i dont' think you can fall in or out of love ,you grow in and, grow out
-i'm not easily angered
-i hate when people wave their hands infront of my face
-my right middle finger is my fav finger
-i love lime coke
-i love someone enough that i would die for them
-i used to play the violin
-i was in figuer skating for several years
-i hate soccer baseball
-i'm a horrible vegitarian
-my middle name is grace
-i remeber phone numbers very easily,i call you once and i'll remeber you #
-i memorize every thing
-when i'm bored nevous or in pain i rearange letters in random words to make other words.
-i love goats and i've stayed at a farm of goats every summer for a few years now
-i count to ten and backdown when i'm waiting for someone
-i hit the first person i met in new brunswick..i've changed a bit since then haha
-i want to open my own cafe someday
-i might be going to newyork when i graduate
-when i was a kid and i was afraind of shadows i would turn on and off the lights untill i could identify where every shadow was coming from
-i fall up the stairs
-camp medley is like a home to me
-i tried to run away to camp in the fall when i was 10
-when i first started blogging i thought that i would never blog...i was wrong
-i love pens
-i love the city bus!
- i once did a speach on the history of the dicionary
-i can't say specific
- once read an encylopedia
-i still have my rock collection
-and my penny collection
-and my stamp collection
-when i'm on the bus it's like time has stopped and i have nothing to worry about
- i write everything in all caps
- i take a part every thing put them back together to see how they work mostly phones toasters clocks or what every i can find
-my dad used to make be write lines when i was in trouble
-but mostly i would have to write essays for him.
-it's a wonder hy i don't mind writing essays now as they were used as punishments
-i can't use mechanical pencils cause i press to hard
-can can play the harmonica a bit
-and the tin whistle a little more
-my fav actor is tome hanks
-when i was little i used to watch the movie kindergarin cop and problem child over and over
-and Arnold Schwarzenegger was my fav actor
-i'm on a puppet team..my puppet is pete
-superman/clark kent is my hero
-i've been a room filled with thousands of butterflys several times
-i don't think i've written a single serious thing in this
-yet at the same time i've learned alot about myself from writing this

Trying not to get my hopes up but if i can get the funds a cross canada bus trip may be in store for me this summer.Amx 2091 miles saint john to winnipeg.

This is one of my fav songs by tracy chapman

When all my hopes and dreams
Have been betrayed
I stand before you
My hands are empty

I am yours
If you are mine

When I fall and stumble
Flat on my face
When I'm shamed and humbled
In disgrace

I am yours
If you are mine

When voices call me
To question my faith
When misperception
Taints my love with hate

I am yours
If you are mine
When time decides
It won't stop for me
When the hawks and vultures
Are circling

I am yours
If you are mine

oh how i love babysitting.when else can you be taught how to play yahtzee from a 6 year old then buried alive in a very large pile of sand. Even the things that at the time arn't quite as funny can turn out to be some of the greatest times.Once i had to babysit on april fools day and well it was quite an experience.I ended up having to go home in bare feet as the little monkeys hid my shoes and were in bed my the time i had to leave.

Answer these questions using only Google Image search. Use only the first page of results (pick an image and paste it on your site).
1. Your first name.

Erin







2. Your middle name.


Grace



3. Your last name.

Hodge







4. Age you'll be on your next birthday.

16



5. Your favourite colour.
Orange




6. Your favourite pastime.



drawing



7. Your favourite fruit

raspberries




8. Your favourite animal.





Dogs



9. The last name of your favourite teacher.

Hodgins




10. Names of your pets.

Chap...funny i always thought this was chip or dale.









1. The one you love.

wikipedia

Plans for the summa.

Spend a couple weeks at medley
See my friend catherine whom i havn't seen in a year!
Fly to winnipeg and spend the remainder of my summer with my big sister, brother in-law and nephew.

i'm kinda thankful now that i didn't get a job after all as my plans would be impossible.

So a few days ago i found out that my friend got engaged :) But it wasn't till today that i realized she'll be the first of my friends to get married...scary thought .

So I'm back from the LIT weekend which was a great time!And I'll be an LIT the first two camps of the summer (girls and boys and Jr teen)One piece of of advise..Never never Put 4 people in a metal camp medley canoe. Especially if you are already out under the bridge...

So i've started reading the screwtape letters by c.s lewis.
In other news after my chemistry exam yesterday, i headed to pizza hut with john and some harborview people then to the davinci code (we bumped into tammy in the parking lot and persuaded her to come with us.) and well i agree with tammy "Dan brown has a rather large imagination."Also i was rather disapointed in Tom hanks acting as he is one of my most favorite actors and i found him slightly dull in this film. After the movie tammy generously offers to take both john and I home. So tammy and i enjoyed some icecream and had some nice chat on my back deck.

Exams ae over and the only thing left to do is to retrive my art work from miss hartman..which could take a few days. I've been pestering her to get them back since i passed them in.

So now i'm at the Parish centre using paul's computer waiting for my dad to be done his meeting to head to town and hang out with Jen fry and karen boyce.

Ps. Find Mr langdon.

Accepting the inevitable.


So the Comic is funny not exactly was i was thinking about but it's a laugh .

So my day has gotten quite alot better.It was raining so nicky and i decided to go for a walk .i was sitting playing my tin wistle when we started hearing this frog.Then i got an idea..i'm already wet from the rain ..i'm gonna catch the frog. So i proceded to wade into almost waist deep water to catch this frog.Half and hour later i complished my goal.Rather satisfied i headed home. drenched to the bone. I got to the end of my drive way and relized i had forgotten my whistle.So we headed back. After 10mins of pacing back and forth seaching we gave up. So we started to jump in the puddles. Then we found the tin whistle...in the bottom of a puddle. So now i think it's time for Erin to get a new one.haha.

So i had my math exam today. Compleat disaster.
Thankfully i'm feeling a bit better now, thanks Jen for the prayer on the bus! Also Paul convinced my dad to buy us icecream which i proceded to eat from the bottom for kicks.Also a compleat disaster.oh well. Any way i'm looking forward to going to the davinci code ..Finally (sorry John) .Oh and of course i'm totally pumped to see Superman which comes out on my birthday. For those that don't know Erin is slightly oppsesed. I think i get to see it in Imax as i'll be in halifax!

One exam down. Two to go.

so yeah this is what i call an annual meeting. Rock paper sissors, congo lines and paper airplanes. This is my gang.

so i'm worring about universities insted of studing for exams...but i guess if i don't study for exams i won't have to worry about universities. Oh dear. i'm off to study now.
-erin

ok so doing some reshearch into universities and well the website for NYU is rather overwheming , i cannot begin to imagine what it's actually like.

so i tried to make rice crispe squares and now i have a very large ball of sticky marshmellows. yum

i love the rain

"those who think sunshine is pure happiness have never danced in the rain."
cheesy quote I know but I think it's rather fitting

oh I love the rain.
-->Rain brings people together,strengthens friendships, and cause you to relize that every thing god does is beautiful.

rain has :
---> forced me to wear someone elses PJ's on at least 2 diffrent occasions. once a friend's and once those of someone who i had never met before in my life.
--> made me take naps and eat at strangers houses
--->made me rely on my chrisian family more
--> allowed me to open up to a friend and be able to share things i've never been able to before.
-->enabled me to be compleatly confortable in praying at the top of my lungs outside.
-->taught me to appreciate the little things in life even if you get wet.

i think we all need a little more rain.

I love the rain, and i Thank God for it!

I think I've pulled every muscle in my body.

haha this song is rather fitting.


Now I lay me down not to sleep
I just get tangled in the sheets
I swim in sweat three inches deep
I just lay back and claim defeat
Chapter read and lesson learned
I turned the lights off while she burned
So while she's three hundred degrees
I throw the sheets off and I freeze
Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around
Who needs sleep?(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
My hands are locked up tight in fists
My mind is racing filled with lists
of things to do and things I've done
Another sleepless night's begun
Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around
Who needs sleep?(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
Who needs sleep?(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awakesince the Second World War)
There's so much joy in life,
so many pleasures all around
But the pleasure of insomniais
one I've never found
With all life has to offer,
There's so much to be enjoyed
But the pleasures of insomniaare ones I can't avoid
Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around
Hala Hala Hala...
Who needs sleep?(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awakesince the Second World War)

Oh what an enjoyable day i have had. i hung out with Fry-face.we swam and swam ate a little cake and took a ride on the city bus..... So maybe i'm odd but i lovvvvve the bus i could ride for hours.it wouldn't do it justice for me to try to explain why on a blog.but yes i love the bus.i can't wait till i move to NYC then i'll take the metro for hours and hours..only 3 years!!

Hot Tamaly Microcopic Lasanga. That is what we have decide HTML stands for.

-hodge

TEC 14

oh memories

So yesterday i climbed a tree and had a water fight. Yes thats it, twas rather enjoyable.

All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
To break this division
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
Erase it and bring us together again

ok so for a few years i've wanted to learn how to plan either the pan flute or the tin whistle and harmonica.
So first i got the pan flute but it was made weird and we couldn't figure out what key it was it...just odd. Then came the harmonica which i still carry around to play when i'm bored.it came with a book and a cd that was supposed to teach you the basics unfourtuantly i finshed the book in one day and havn't learned any thing else but i can play a pretty mean "boogie woggie blues" haha. so i final bought a tin whistle a cheap one i must add but i'm rather pleased with the sound of it. so this is my apologie in advance as i do have a habit of carrying these instruments around and playing them at random times.

it's raining it's pouring the old man is snoring....
i can play that ..woot

ok so clicking on link after link after link on peopleas blogs i came across this..correct me if i'm wrong but i think it's karen's any way i truly enjoyed this.

To all the true camp people out there: You know you are a camp person if...
-Abnormality is a compliment.
-Being at home makes you homesick
.-Dressing up only involves slightly cleaner clothes
.-Everything you have has your initials on it.
-Most of your stories start with "and then there was this one time, at camp..."
-On the job training includes "the Cup Game".
-Tater tots are its own food group.
-Sandal/watch tan lines are a competition.
-Sharpies, pens and duct tape are worth more than gold
.-Water cures all ills
.-Camp has been over for 22 minutes, and you're already thinking about next summer.
-You are convinced that there is no way you can date someone who is not a camp guy/girl, because no one else really understands.
-You can burst into song about anything.
-You can make anything out of duct tape, including band-aids.
-You can make up a song about anything.
-You can shampoo, wash, and shave your legs, etc in less than 5 minutes.
-You can think of 50 ways to use a bandanna off the top of your head.
-You don't think non-camp people can understand your summer job.
-You never wonder why camp people give the best hugs.
-You have a camp set of clothes.-You have a collection of outfits for theme weeks.
-You have about 20 mosquito bites in 1 square inch of skin.-
You have an entire volume of camp-friendly mixed CDs.
-You don't do this for the money - and you mean it.
-You know exactly how to get to camp from home by car, boat, plane or any other means of transportation.-You know that laughter, hiccups, sneezes, itching, and yawns are contagious
.-You were disappointed to find that you can't major in "camp".
-You never refuse free food.-You refer to your campers as YOUR kids.
-You save anything and everything campers have ever made for you.
-You value the friendship bracelet you got at the camp last summer more than any other piece of jewelry
.-Your "real-world" friends have limited you to only 5 camp stories a day.
-Your barter system relies on hugs, backrubs, and chocolate exchanges
.-Your closer with your campfriends than with your own family.
-Your friends know you're never home from June till September.
-Your primary method of diplomatic resolution is rock, paper, and scissors.
-Your tan lines are also your dirt lines.
-Your water bottle and sandals are as essential as your underwear.
-Your year only has two seasons.Summer and non-summer.
-You've given up time off to comfort a crying camper.
-You've used your frozen Nalgene as an icepack.



oh my ..i can't wait till LIT this year and, God willing ,working there next summer. I've wanted to work at medley since the first time i went..i actually found my journal from that week and i had wrote that in it. i don't think god is going to change that desire any time soon.Camp medley has been my home so many of my greatest memories are from camp. And to think i didn't want to go the first time..haha
Although i've been a christian since i was really little it was after chapel when i was 9 that someone prayed for me and i decided to stop tagging along on my parents faith and make it my own and that day has changed my life forever!. It's camp people that have been like familly that have influenced me and formed part of who i am today.

And to add one more thing to the list
-you know your a true camp person when you attempt to run away TO camp medley in the fall.haha
and yes...i did ..i got to the end of the street and my daddy made me come home...Oh i wish i were 10 again.

HAHA. MacGyver...Read the comment on my last post.
oh my. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Macgyver What's funny is that random comment has quite a lot of truth in it.

so i broke my glasses last week and haven't brought them into be fixed yet but i managed to fix them with a bent paper clip and sissors and a bit of tape.

you gotta love these short posts.
-Erin

"Only Aslan can save your brother now" said Mr beaver

Am I at the point of no improvement?What of the death I still dwell in?I try to excel, but I feel no movement.Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?[Chorus:]Never underestimate my Jesus.You're telling me that there's no hope.I'm telling you your wrong.Never underestimate my JesusWhen the world around you crumblesHe will be strong, He will be strongI throw up my hands"Oh, the impossibilities"Frustrated and tiredWhere do I go from here?Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willinglyOvercoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear[Chorus]I think I can't, I think I can'tBut I think you can, I think you canI think I can't, I think I can'tBut I think you can, I think you canGather my insufficiencies andplace them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them in your hands

WOOT. i fixed it!

Grr. i've been trying to fix this stupid thing..nothing is working if someone understands the formatting thing help would be appreciated!

Oh Erin...i've just totaly messed up the format on my blog and i don't like it at all..now i can't remeber what i did. smart.

Oh my. in the last few days i've been so tired. Yesterday i fell asleep in math class and my friend woke me up then later i fell asleep on a couch during a bible study and my dad had to wake me up, and today i fell asleep on the bus and Nicky had to wake me...Then i fell asleep on the same couch waiting for my dad. i think i need
some sleep..just a thought.haha

I was doing some yard work and i couldn't help but over hear the two girls next door as the played house.As i stopped and listened my heart began to ache. The girls were playing a game not unfamilliar to me but unlike my friends and I when we were little, these girls pretended to be mother and child. And the majority of the game was spent yelling.The mother would yell at the daughter and the girl would start to cry the mother would make threats of beatings and the duaghter would scream.It went on and on for a long time. It truly pains me to think of the reality of this game. You can really come to understand what kind of world you are living in by the way kids play house..they really are the best observers.What has the world come to.
-Erin

There's a rock in my shoe. And I keep running but i can't seem to shake it out..i guess it's true you can't run from your problems. Oh the story of my life. You gotta love those metapors.

You can't stay on the mountain top forever.

oh yuck. My dog just got loose and came back carrying his prize . And droped it on our lawn and looked at me like he had done some great and daring task and that i should be very proud. proud is not the word i would use.

a post dedicated to the love of soul patches.

so er yeah for those who don't know..Soul patches rock! and i just discovered that there's a band called soulpatch. Oh my new hero.
http://www.soulpatch.de/english.htm

The Soul Patch (or Small Beard): The Soul Patch is most readily identified as a style popular among the beatniks and jazz artists of the 50s and 60s. In earlier periods, the soul patch was called a 'small beard' for obvious reasons. It is characterized by its confinement to the area just below the lower lip. It has been seen trimmed short, or grown long and groomed into varied shapes. Modern versions are often trimmed short and narrow.


oh one last thing those of you that were at TEC then you'll get this ...SOUL PATCH JESUS LOVES YOU.

i have to start writing that song.."soul patch jesus".

Oh chocolate milk and pizza ...

Never, never pin your whole faith on any human being: not if he is the best and wisest in the whole world. There are lots of nice things you can do with sand; but do not try building a house on it.
C. S. Lewis

But i guess sometimes you have to learn the hard way...

Oh i do enjoy having the house to myself it's times like tonight that make me want to get my own apartment..and quick.. So my parents are away. anyway Jen& tammy come over it was quite alot of fun then Genna comes over and we finaly watch the season final of our fav show lost...we were at a play on wed so we taped it.and wathced it for the first time tonight..i think it would have been funny to watch us we went from tears to laughter to screaming . Then came the pillowfight. then around10 we start racking the grass.OH what fun.. i think the people next door think i'm insane. But i've decided to become nocturnal for the weekend.
So Goodmoring every one!!!!i'm going to finish racking the grass!

Teens encounter Christ.

So i went to TEC this week end and now i'm rather tired and a bit confused when it comes to time haha.Although for me the weekend wasn't always easy and i ther were some really tuff things going on i can say that God was there and i was changed personally.Now i don't want to go into to much detail for several reasons including not wanting to ruin the suprise for any one who hasn't gone yet.during the service sunday i saw and experinced things i had never had before.I was filled with a joy that i cannot even begin to discribe and for no reason at all i laughed for an hour,it felt great. and the joy didn't stop with the laughing i was given a weird feeling the only way i can discribe is saying that its like having 20 coffees(which i've done) but better and without the twiching it was truly the time i've had so much Joy just to live...and to me alive in christ. though now i'm going through the back from ,insert christian event here, low.

Gotta love the rain.

Again i'm amazed by God's abitlity to work through the bad things in life flip them upside down and turn it into someting beautiful.so the other day was an example of that.I was having a rough day ...so i decided to ask my wonderful newish friend Jen Fry if she'd like to talk.so after puppets i biked to Jen's.Unfourtnatly it was raining amd i got rather wet. But it wasn't that bad i would dry...haha thats what i thought, God had other plans!
So i arrived at jen's and we headed off to the tannis court/base ball field. A great place for a chat.
Well it started raining harder. i meen hard and continued to rain.And at first it kinda sucked cause well we were getting wet. So we decided to yell at the top of your lungs that we " Love the rain" to make ourselfs think that we did ..and it worked.. So we hopped some safety tape and a fense being the rebels we are and played on the unfinished playground.that night we spent almost 2 hours in the pouring rain ,till be were soaked to the skin, Praying at the top of our lungs unafraid of any one hearing. We laughed and laughed it was great. We met god in the rain that night and i will never forget it. Then it got dark and i realised that i still had to bike home.but it was dark and wet so we headed to jen's Got into flannel Pj's and drank mink and had chocolate cookies.It was rather enjoyable. I can now say I LOVE THE RAIN!

This is Mike caines song Come unto me.This song meens so much to me in so many ways.apart from sounding beautiful. i used to fall asleep every night to this song. It's a great promise and is so comforting.it's amazing really it calms me down without fail.It's one of my fav verses.
Also it's important to me cause it remindes me of and awsome memory in NYC.
-->My team was going to Gold water hospital for terminally ill patients.mostly Aids. And to tell you the truth i was scared i had no idea how to relate to anyone there . But god worked through it any way. in fact it was probly greatest thing that happend in NY.any way i was walking through the hall with paul when a man waved us into his room. The man was weak and you could tell it took all his strengh to lift his arms but the first thing he did was raise his arms and say " I love God".The man's name was victor and he was dying from aids. but he was absolutly beaming .we prayed with him then sang this song ( come unto me) it had been on my own and Paul's heart all week and it was great. victor was trying to talk and lift his arms and was so happy. i couldn't grasp how someone that close to death could smile.But wait that isn't even the most amazing part! when we left the hospital we were talking to our guide about our expirences and we told her about victor.She got super excited and then told us that the day befor, the other half of our team had visited victor and he had given his life to christ.When they saw him the first time he was so sick that he wasn't talking and couldn't move. But the VERY next day he was trying to talk and move and he was beaming. What a wonderful God we serve!it showed me how much god can do for someone. So maybe victor won't be compleatly healed (although it's compleatly possible with God)But i think god did some healing that day and not just phycially.



Come unto Me
All you who labour and are heavy laden
And I will give you rest
Come unto Me
All you who labour and are heavy laden
And I will give you rest

For who when he asks
For a loaf of bread
Shall receive a stone
Not from Me says the Lord
Oh not I
For he who seeks shall find

You said come unto me
All you who labour and are heavy laden
And I will give you rest
You said come unto me
All you who labour and are heavy laden
And I will give you rest

Yea though I walk
Through the valley of the shadow of death
I’ll fear no evil
For Thou art with me
Thy rod and staff
They comfort me

I am so close to unpluging my computer and literly threowing it out the window!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i SPENT AT LEAST AN HOUR AND A HALF TYPING AND THEN WHAT DO YOU KNOW MY COMPUTER DECIDES TO SHUT OFF!AND GUESS WHAT HAPPEND..YES I LOST IT ALL! AND I AM RATHER ANGRY./.THATS AND UNDERSTATMENT.AND IF YOU KNOW ME I DON'T GET ANGRY VERY OFTEN OR EASILY.
SO I RAN AROUND MY HOUSE FINDING EVERY SCAP PEICE OF PAPER AND PROCEDED TO PUT IT THROUGH THE SHREDDER WELL I DID SOME MANUALLY.tHEN I FOUND THE BIGGEST PILLOW IN MY HOUSE AND THROUGH IT OFF MY DECK SEVERAL TIMES. and amazingly i feel much better now.

So we went to a movie tonight and if you'd like to read the book the Hodge family wrote it's call "106 steps to take if you want to go to a movie" Volume 1 you can find it in your local book store. Oh my. right to clear that up for those of you who don't get it . my family could write a book on every thing we do..every thing has to be so complicated. and as most of you would know i'm not like that at all. Screw the details my new moto is " just do it" with option of inserting shutup in front ,depending on the situation of course.Any way i'm not a details person and now i'm rather tired as i find it all slightly overwhelming ,unnessicary and stressful. Right..so g-night every one
-Hodge

i'll be your hands and feet

This song discribes how i want to be. I want to be able to just go where god sends me with out fear, with his help of course.Latly i've been so consumed with the thought of going back to new york that i havn't given god a chance to Tell me where HE wants me to go. Maybe it is new york untill now i had thought so but maybe there's something else out there for me.My prayer is for him to show me and for courage to be able to follow his will.

An image flashed across my TV screen

Another broken heart comes into view

I saw the pain, and I turned my back

Why can't I do the things I want to?

I am willing yet I'm so afraid

You give me strengthWhen I say

I wanna be Your hands

I wanna be Your feet

I'll go where You send me

I'll go where You send me

I'll be Your hands

I'll be Your feet

I'll go where You send me

I'll go where You send me

And I try, yeah I try

To touch the world like You touched my life

An I'll find my way

To be Your hands

I've abandoned every selfish thought

I've surrender everything I've got

You can have everything I am

And perfect everything I'm not

I am willing, I'm not afraid

You give me strengthWhen I say...

This is the last time

I turn my back on You

From now on I'll go out

Send me where You want me to

I finally have a mission

I promise I'll complete

I don't need excuses

When I am Your hands and feet

I am Your hands and feet

oh the wonderful sun

isn't it amazing how you can lay in the sun for hours and think you havn't even tanned only to walk inside and discover that you should't fall asleep in the sun for that long haha. three cheers for wonky tan lines!

Oh what I long but wonderful day.
John boy picked me up at 6:45 am and we headed to town.Our first stop..T-ho's or as most people refer to it as Tim horton's.I grabbed my caffeinated bevridge and headed to stone chruch.Sitting in between the main doors locked out john knocked pointlessly on the windows.about 10 min later we saw movment .We were let in and i proceded to jump on JEN FRY to wake her up haha.
We then went to harbor station to volonteer for the free for all event to minister to people and hand out free toys and food.It was a great time. Then we went for a people hunt to find people we knew up town. After seeing genna,karen and faith we found the stone chruch crew and hung with them the rest of the day.
twas a great day

Jesus all for Jesus

could have, would have, should have. i'm constantly worrying about thing about what i'm going to do today, tommorow, when i graduate, 10 years from now act..
This song has really spoken to me latly.

Jesus, all for Jesus,
All I am and have and ever hope to be.
Jesus, all for Jesus,All I am and have and ever hope to be.

All of my ambitions, hopes and plans
I surrender these into Your hands.
All of my ambitions, hopes and plans
I surrender these into Your hands.

For it's only in Your will that I am free,
For it's only in Your will that I am free,

Jesus, all for Jesus,
All I am and have and ever hope to be.

-->Jesus i surrend these into your hands..

-Erin

New york dreaming

Oh...how i've been dreaming about new york latly.I think i'm called to do another mission there.I have a feeling that God may put me there for a year or two after i graduate. might just wait a year for John boy though. Oh i can't wait till i graduate.

when you need it most.

Right so today was one of those days where you wished you stayed in bed.It felt like morning all day long...
But it's amazing how great things happen when you least expect it and when you need it the most.I'm so thankful for my awsome christian friends...And for your prayers.Thanks jen for the pray on bus ride home.
God is truly there when your at your worst, as always.
-Hodge

debate with complete stranger.

oh my how could i forget. yesterday i had the shortest best conversation ever ..well it was more of debate .i was standing in the line at ryes and a compleat stranger asked my if they had ice . i replyed yes and then he bagan listing all the reasons why one must put ice in their soda and i just happen to be anti ice in soda and told him why. so we had a nice little talk...but i'm still anti ice.

-hodge

ONE LAST COMMENT TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO HAVE DUBED ME A "GERMAPHOBE"..ERIN HODGE ,PURELL ADDICT ,HELD A PIGION-- YES I HELD A DIRTY PIGION...BUT THE PURELL DID COME IN HANDY AFTER..

LATER

OH.WHAT.A.DAY.

WELL I HAD ONE OF THE MOST ER..(SEACHING FOR WORD)WONDERFUL LOVELY DAYS IN AGES.YES AGES.MY DAY WAS JAMBACKED WITH RANDOM AND MEMORABLE EVENTS. IT ALL STARTED OUT LIKE A NORMAL SUNDAY.....
-->I WOKE UP TO THE STATIC OF MY RADIO,THAT IS ALWAYS A LITTLE OFF OF THE RADIO STATION, AND GOT READY FOR MY RATHER CRAZY FRIEND JEN FRY TO PICK ME UP FOR CHUCH.WE WENT TO STONE.WHICH I RATHER ENJOYED AND AM CONSIDERING VISITING MORE OFTEN.ANY WAY TO CONTINUE WITH MY DAY..WE COULD NOT DECIDE WHERE TO HEAD TO FIRST...AND TO TELL YOU THE TRUTHWITH THE WHOLE DAY AHEAD OF US WITH ALMOST NO PLAN I WASN'T WORRIED CAUSE THAT IS THE KIND OF THING I THRIVE ON.SO WE WERE DIRECTED TO KING SQUARE WHICH FRY THOUGHT WAS IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION HAHA.WHEN WE ARRIVED AT THE PARK WE BEGUN TO FEED THE PIGIONS OUR FOOD...OH WELL.WE HAD QUITE A TIME WITH THE BIRDS FROM BIRDS ON OUR ARMS TO IN MY BOOKBAG.tHE WE HEADEDV TO LUNCH AND TO MY A LIGHTER LITTLE DID JEN KNOW THAT I WAS PLANING ON USING IT HAHA.WE WENT TO THE VOLLYBALL COURTS AND PROCEDED TO BUILD A FIRE! ERIN HEARTS FIRE.
AFTER LYING IN THE SUN AND HAVING A GREAT CONVERSATION WE MET CHEY AND TAMMY.THE DAY CONTINUED TO GO COMPLEATLY RANDOM WITH FEEDING PIGIONS AND MORE FIRE AND A LITTLE TO MUCH COFFEE..OH COFFEE HOW I LOVE THAT STUFF.
OVER ALL IT WAS A GREAT DAY . PART OF A GREAT WEEKEND. MOVIES&PIGIONS& LOTS OF FIRE AND MOST OF ALL SOME GREAT CONVERSATIONG AND FELLOWSHIP WITH SOME AMAZING CHRISTIAN PEOPLE THAT GOD HAS PUT INTO MY LIFE.THANKYOU LORD FOR A WONDERFUL ANFD LOVVELY DAY.

CHEERS.
ERIN GRACE HODGE

-->LIFT UP THAT CHIN AND WATCH OUT FOR BIRD POOP.

ahhh.the smell of freshly cut grass and a light sprinkle of rain.-- now this is what i call spring.

What have you been doing latly?....nothing.

What have you been doing latly?....nothing.
isn't that alot of people's response to that question.it is certainly mine.It seems as if nothing really has happend for a very long time, but i know tons of things actualy have happend.do you ever get that feeling that you don't really have controle over your own life. i guess it can be a good and bad thing. it's good when you know that God is in control and you have nothing to fear. But right now i feel as if i'm on a train going ...nowhere. and nothing i do will change the direction of the train. The sound of the train won't seem to go away.
-Hodge

So today is good friday and i was sitting in church thinking about the amazing gift that jesus gave us the gift of life. he died willingly because he loved us each so much, each wipping he took was for me and for you . He died so that we could be free from the bonds of this world.so today i'm lifting up all my worries and troubles up to the lord and lying them at the foot of the cross.
-Hodge

So i was thinking today how negative this blog will sound if i only ask my self about the little rocks. I should also write about the positive things, days when i feel like i'm running bare feet across perfect white sand beaches.
So here are the perfect beaches that i've experinced latly.
-talking till 12:30am on the phone with a friend that i had feared i was losing touch with.
-having a 4 year old boy run and jump into my arms and give me the best hug i've ever had, for no reason at all!
-having a group of kids look up to me and really listen to me.
-knowing that i have people in my life that love me for who i am.
-having guys that aren't really my brothers become more like my brothers than ever before.
So these are just a few of the positive things, blessings, and joys that make the walk a little more enjoyable.
Hodge

undoing the laces.

so..i think the first question i need to ask myself is :where did i pick up the rock?i'm not sure if i can really figure out where i picked up the first rock but i presume it was quite a few years ago so for now i'll focus on today.
Where and when did the rock get in my shoe today?
- it might have been when i first woke up..i woke up knowing that today was going to be one long day.i had a pain the head and my hands had gone mysteriously numb.i walk down staires only to fight with my mother.Great start to my day.
-or it could of been on the bus.
-or when my hands became so numb that i had a hard time moving them
-or it could of been when i failed two chemistry tests in one week.
-or it could of been in art class listening to the people beside me talk about things that they know nothing about but unfourtunatly i struggle with every day. They make judgements and jokes and i can't say a thing because then they would know who i am and what i live with.
-or was it after art class when i made myself belive that the things they said were true.
-or it could of been when i came back home only to fight with my mother a little more.
-or when i was running through the rain and tripped off the curb and twisted my ancle
-or when the lady treated my like i was 8.
-or when i downed 4 cups of black coffee so that i could feel somewhat alert
-or when i had to say bye to the people who when i'm around i feel most like myself.

these were the little rocks in my shoe today and i've have just shaken them out.
-time to start walking again
Hodge

there's a rock in my shoe

Well if i had to sum up my day in one sentence it would be "Once again there's a rock in my shoe."All day i've been walking around with a stupid little rock that got stuck in my shoe when walking.And all day i keep planning to take of my shoe and shake it out, but then i wonder what if someone sees? would look kinda odd? and what if my feet stink? so all day i continued to put up with this stupid little rock ,but by the end of the day it didn't feel quite so little any more .The rock itself hadn't grown but i noticed it more and it hurt more and more every time i walked. Then it hit me this is how i've been living -carring a stupid little rock afraid to deal with it because i might make a fool of my self in the process. but every day, every hour ,each step of this life i take the rock gets heavier sharper and more painful. I've made my self hold on to it for so long that it feels as if i can't get rid of it. so this blog is my attemped at taking off my shoes turing them upside down and shaking the stupid little rocks out. When i'm done i'll put them back one and start my walk again but next time i'll know to get the rock out before it starts hurting.
-hodge