Saturday, February 02, 2008
The world is going to shit.
I hate this feeling, the feeling of hopelessness and not being about to anything about it. I see stuff going on alround be and the little i can do i don't see make a difference. Frig.
Friday, February 01, 2008
So The unrest in Kenya right now is affecting me much more that i would have ever thought.
Some back ground:
The Leader of the country is from the Kikuyu tribe, and in the election a member of another tribe was elected but the vote was said to be corrupt. So vnow the two tribes are fighting, severaly kikuyu chuches have benn burnt down with everyone inside. This is extreamly hard to hear for anyone but i also have a personal attachment...
My dad's best friend through colledge and my God father Moses Njoroge is a preist and professer in kenya. He is a member of the kikuyu tribe. I presume that you can see where i'm going. Another thing is that all last week my dad has been sending him e-mails...none of them returned. The other day we tried calling( it's hard to work out the greatest times) but his phone had been disconnected.
This has affected me way more that i would have thought, you see i don't really "know" him. He's my God father whom i have heard storys about and seen pictures and sends us an e-mail once and a while but the last time he saw me i was small enough to hold.
For years i've somehow felt a supernatural maybe attachment to kenya, maybe because of moses or maybe a calling from God. A few years ago i made it my plan to save my money and fly to Kenya as a mission trip and as a way of getting to know moses.
Well friends i'm now on a desprate search. I've been trying to understand more about the situation and also where specifically those fires and out breaks were. The problem is that i can't figure out excatly where he was located. All i know is that he is at a school and a church that we thought was St annes. But i'm starting to think that the info is wrong as the only time i've found his name is in connection to ST pauls. i'm currently reading his thesis..i think partly because i have always wanted to and it's some sort of connection and i'm looking for reference to where he grew up as it is about the kikuyu culture.
My one request is that you pray for him, Moses, and for his family. His wife mary and thier kids Faith,sharrack, ruth and Elijah. And also pray for the country as a whole.
Later.
Some back ground:
The Leader of the country is from the Kikuyu tribe, and in the election a member of another tribe was elected but the vote was said to be corrupt. So vnow the two tribes are fighting, severaly kikuyu chuches have benn burnt down with everyone inside. This is extreamly hard to hear for anyone but i also have a personal attachment...
My dad's best friend through colledge and my God father Moses Njoroge is a preist and professer in kenya. He is a member of the kikuyu tribe. I presume that you can see where i'm going. Another thing is that all last week my dad has been sending him e-mails...none of them returned. The other day we tried calling( it's hard to work out the greatest times) but his phone had been disconnected.
This has affected me way more that i would have thought, you see i don't really "know" him. He's my God father whom i have heard storys about and seen pictures and sends us an e-mail once and a while but the last time he saw me i was small enough to hold.
For years i've somehow felt a supernatural maybe attachment to kenya, maybe because of moses or maybe a calling from God. A few years ago i made it my plan to save my money and fly to Kenya as a mission trip and as a way of getting to know moses.
Well friends i'm now on a desprate search. I've been trying to understand more about the situation and also where specifically those fires and out breaks were. The problem is that i can't figure out excatly where he was located. All i know is that he is at a school and a church that we thought was St annes. But i'm starting to think that the info is wrong as the only time i've found his name is in connection to ST pauls. i'm currently reading his thesis..i think partly because i have always wanted to and it's some sort of connection and i'm looking for reference to where he grew up as it is about the kikuyu culture.
My one request is that you pray for him, Moses, and for his family. His wife mary and thier kids Faith,sharrack, ruth and Elijah. And also pray for the country as a whole.
Later.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Erin is going to have a schedualed outrage at 1:13 pm.
I hate it i hate it i hate it! art makes me sick to my stomach and gives me alcers. There are days that i would rather take math. ( i can't believe i just said that).
I wanted to burst into tears yesterday in class from the stress.
I just lost basically 500$ with exams because my avrage dropped so much. I havn't had such a low english mark in years. Now i won't be able to get the same entrace scholarship into STU. Damn it.
My fear is that i will end up in debt and then be too stressed to continue school and then have to quit but then all the money will have been wasted.\
Frustration.
Mixed feelings
There are moments that i can't wait to get out of this place ( most of the time actaully) but then there are those times that i really just want to curl up in a ball in the corner of maket square and never leave. Things that for years i've taken for grantit are now becoming apperent to me.
A little example: Milk. i so didn't realise how flippen expensive it is. It's my favorite but i think that i will have to give it up. Because not only will i be broke but i also can't seem to understand why MILK is so expensive, for goodness sake it comes from cows. Maybe if they didn't give all those cows chemicals and hormones the milk would be cheaper ( actaually i understand taht it actaully would be more expensive..) But Still . argg
There are things and people that i will miss terrribly, and some of them i feel slipping away already. i hate it. i feel as if people are preparing for seperation and are there for taking less of an intrest in eachother.
Well that's all for now kids.
-Erin
I hate it i hate it i hate it! art makes me sick to my stomach and gives me alcers. There are days that i would rather take math. ( i can't believe i just said that).
I wanted to burst into tears yesterday in class from the stress.
I just lost basically 500$ with exams because my avrage dropped so much. I havn't had such a low english mark in years. Now i won't be able to get the same entrace scholarship into STU. Damn it.
My fear is that i will end up in debt and then be too stressed to continue school and then have to quit but then all the money will have been wasted.\
Frustration.
Mixed feelings
There are moments that i can't wait to get out of this place ( most of the time actaully) but then there are those times that i really just want to curl up in a ball in the corner of maket square and never leave. Things that for years i've taken for grantit are now becoming apperent to me.
A little example: Milk. i so didn't realise how flippen expensive it is. It's my favorite but i think that i will have to give it up. Because not only will i be broke but i also can't seem to understand why MILK is so expensive, for goodness sake it comes from cows. Maybe if they didn't give all those cows chemicals and hormones the milk would be cheaper ( actaually i understand taht it actaully would be more expensive..) But Still . argg
There are things and people that i will miss terrribly, and some of them i feel slipping away already. i hate it. i feel as if people are preparing for seperation and are there for taking less of an intrest in eachother.
Well that's all for now kids.
-Erin
Saturday, January 05, 2008
Happy new year!
i havn't blogged in ages, it seems that because facebook is so great a keeping in touch with people that i havnt' had anything to write.
Not much has changed really. it's the same old same old. i'm applying fro university tommorow and that excites me and scares me at the same time.
i started a new blog http://photo-a-day-hodge.blogspot.com/ that will act as a photo jornal, check it out if ya have the chance.
-erin
Not much has changed really. it's the same old same old. i'm applying fro university tommorow and that excites me and scares me at the same time.
i started a new blog http://photo-a-day-hodge.blogspot.com/ that will act as a photo jornal, check it out if ya have the chance.
-erin
Monday, October 08, 2007
Thursday, October 04, 2007
Soo it's the week for getting reconnected it seems. Back in touch with anna and amanda fricker after far to long. time seem like it has escaped me and flown away.
It's starting to sink in that in a year i won't be in public school and more.It's all i know..i've been in school for hmm. 4-17 .. 14 years. uhh. yeah.
So i'm horrible excited and scared for university in the fall..
i'm alright with change but the other day it hit me that i'm going to be leaving a few really good friends at least for a year.
(john boy you better go to stu :P or genna and i will kidnapp you)
anyway as much as i want to go to freddy i don't want to leave my friends behind.
well thats all for now..
-erin
It's starting to sink in that in a year i won't be in public school and more.It's all i know..i've been in school for hmm. 4-17 .. 14 years. uhh. yeah.
So i'm horrible excited and scared for university in the fall..
i'm alright with change but the other day it hit me that i'm going to be leaving a few really good friends at least for a year.
(john boy you better go to stu :P or genna and i will kidnapp you)
anyway as much as i want to go to freddy i don't want to leave my friends behind.
well thats all for now..
-erin
Sunday, September 09, 2007
Monday, September 03, 2007
The one with all the gymnastics.
so cirque du soleil was amazing! genna and i and her cousin hannah went and it was edge of the seat kind of stuff!
on the way back everytime i saw a) tree b)pole c) wide open space
i would attempt gymnastics..resulting in some great photos haha.all which will be posted when genna sends them my way.
-erin
on the way back everytime i saw a) tree b)pole c) wide open space
i would attempt gymnastics..resulting in some great photos haha.all which will be posted when genna sends them my way.
-erin
The one with all the rain.
So my first week begin home from camp...
after some shopping, and hanging out with alisha hanson at the X..then getting sick at the giant tiger , i made it all the way there..can't say the same for alisha :( Genna gives me a ring.
ring ring.
so we plan lunch.
which made me feel very old.
so after some wandering and genna learning how to get a parking ticket from the machine..and going to the gym, forgeting my wallet then buying cirque du soliel tickets.
we go to lunch.
so a bagette, samosa and some taco pica later...we go buy FISH!
yeh! FISH!
we name 3 of them.... Genna, John and princeton..( i bought another one and named it erin)
the un-named one must of felt left out..so it died on the way home. only to be replaced with 2 new fish.
so then we head back to genna's...
eat supper at her aunts, then chucked some camping supplies in to the breeze ( only the necessities of course :P ) and zoom of to the camp ground to get our free ice capps ( genna works there) and set up the tent head off in to the wilderness to re trace the steps i took last spring.. ( see blog post..granola bars float) we discover that it's changed a fair amount. then we hear genna's dog going crazy and some very high pitch yelps and cries..it was a racoon.. and it was putting up quite a fight...but buddy won. but of course it had to be just barely alive..so that i would feel compelled to put the poor thing out of it's misery..so genna and i kill a racoon. :(
then we back to the camp site to enjoy a very patetic camp fire.. note to self: wet wood and gum packages suck for big fires. we play on the play ground..and i of course have to attempted to jump of the swing..land on 2 feet, take a step and land on my face.hehe.
so after playing a game oof have you ever..and discovering that it dosn't work because we know each other to well, i nearley kill my teeth and genna by attempting to open something with a) my bare hands b) the camp fire pit ( still burning ) and c) my teeth.
about an hour later...
genna's fast asleep..i'm lying on my back in the tent..( with no cover on the top so that we can see the stars ) and i get to thinking..is sure seems cold and cloudy, and windy..and then i hear it..thunder. then comes the incredible lighting. then of course the RAIN!
after a min or so of disbelief i start tell ing genna..who is deeeeeppp in sleep.
i shake her..gennna machum argg. RAIN!
we gather some of our belongings and run to the car..it's puring buckets....my car door won't close so genna fixed it ( god love her) in the rain.
the storm was huge..but we couldn't of drove home for more than one reason. so we spent a very we night in the car..thinking about all the stuff that was in the tent getting wrecked...which turned out to be a mp3 player and a book my pants and my shirt. oh joy.
morning comes and we pack up our stuff and go home..the end..well i went to the dentist to get a filling. but that sucked.
-erin
after some shopping, and hanging out with alisha hanson at the X..then getting sick at the giant tiger , i made it all the way there..can't say the same for alisha :( Genna gives me a ring.
ring ring.
so we plan lunch.
which made me feel very old.
so after some wandering and genna learning how to get a parking ticket from the machine..and going to the gym, forgeting my wallet then buying cirque du soliel tickets.
we go to lunch.
so a bagette, samosa and some taco pica later...we go buy FISH!
yeh! FISH!
we name 3 of them.... Genna, John and princeton..( i bought another one and named it erin)
the un-named one must of felt left out..so it died on the way home. only to be replaced with 2 new fish.
so then we head back to genna's...
eat supper at her aunts, then chucked some camping supplies in to the breeze ( only the necessities of course :P ) and zoom of to the camp ground to get our free ice capps ( genna works there) and set up the tent head off in to the wilderness to re trace the steps i took last spring.. ( see blog post..granola bars float) we discover that it's changed a fair amount. then we hear genna's dog going crazy and some very high pitch yelps and cries..it was a racoon.. and it was putting up quite a fight...but buddy won. but of course it had to be just barely alive..so that i would feel compelled to put the poor thing out of it's misery..so genna and i kill a racoon. :(
then we back to the camp site to enjoy a very patetic camp fire.. note to self: wet wood and gum packages suck for big fires. we play on the play ground..and i of course have to attempted to jump of the swing..land on 2 feet, take a step and land on my face.hehe.
so after playing a game oof have you ever..and discovering that it dosn't work because we know each other to well, i nearley kill my teeth and genna by attempting to open something with a) my bare hands b) the camp fire pit ( still burning ) and c) my teeth.
about an hour later...
genna's fast asleep..i'm lying on my back in the tent..( with no cover on the top so that we can see the stars ) and i get to thinking..is sure seems cold and cloudy, and windy..and then i hear it..thunder. then comes the incredible lighting. then of course the RAIN!
after a min or so of disbelief i start tell ing genna..who is deeeeeppp in sleep.
i shake her..gennna machum argg. RAIN!
we gather some of our belongings and run to the car..it's puring buckets....my car door won't close so genna fixed it ( god love her) in the rain.
the storm was huge..but we couldn't of drove home for more than one reason. so we spent a very we night in the car..thinking about all the stuff that was in the tent getting wrecked...which turned out to be a mp3 player and a book my pants and my shirt. oh joy.
morning comes and we pack up our stuff and go home..the end..well i went to the dentist to get a filling. but that sucked.
-erin
The one with all the kids.
This summer i played outside, there were lots of kids, it was hot.i had fun, it made me tired.next year i am going to do the same thing.
the end.
the end.
Back to the grind
oh dearest blog...i have ignored you. but since the readers..uhh ok more like reader * cough* genna, have requested many times, i will update. serveral times today infact.
so here goes.
so here goes.
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Staff week & girls and boys camp #1
So i'm back home from my second week at camp medley this year...the first week was staff training and included lots of team building things to help the staff to get to know each other and work together as a team.Also there was a lot of talks to do with various things that will help us along the summer. overall it was a great week, challanging and streaching, but good. i cam hom on friday from staff week tired but excited for the weeks to come.
this last week was girls and boys camp. so there are ages 7-11 or 12. so it can be an interessting mix of maturity. campers that a very young for there age and campers that are more mature than the majority. i was in dinning hall which was an absolute blast! well all except that one insedent....
we finnaly got the industrail dish washer working and i went to open the soap and it splashed up into my eyes..so i go to rinse my eyes out..but they burn like you have no idea..so someone goes to read the lable of the soap..turns out that i got sodium hydroxide in my eyes...which is those of you that don't know is the strongest corrosive...and it was also chlorinated..so after a few more mins of flushing out my eyes and franticly searching you my medicare card..i become the first emergence trip to the hospital of the year.if you want to know more about the funny expericne of my trip to the hospital than give me a ring. any way..because i flushed my eyes out so well it didn't have a chance to burn or corrode my eyes and therefor my vision is not affected..right now i'm just very sensitive to light and have a constant burning feeling in and around my left eye ( the right got less in it) and i have little blisters on my face and chemical burns. haha. it's kinda funny to me now after i'm getting over the shock.
uhh..there will be more later..but i got to got do laundry.
this last week was girls and boys camp. so there are ages 7-11 or 12. so it can be an interessting mix of maturity. campers that a very young for there age and campers that are more mature than the majority. i was in dinning hall which was an absolute blast! well all except that one insedent....
we finnaly got the industrail dish washer working and i went to open the soap and it splashed up into my eyes..so i go to rinse my eyes out..but they burn like you have no idea..so someone goes to read the lable of the soap..turns out that i got sodium hydroxide in my eyes...which is those of you that don't know is the strongest corrosive...and it was also chlorinated..so after a few more mins of flushing out my eyes and franticly searching you my medicare card..i become the first emergence trip to the hospital of the year.if you want to know more about the funny expericne of my trip to the hospital than give me a ring. any way..because i flushed my eyes out so well it didn't have a chance to burn or corrode my eyes and therefor my vision is not affected..right now i'm just very sensitive to light and have a constant burning feeling in and around my left eye ( the right got less in it) and i have little blisters on my face and chemical burns. haha. it's kinda funny to me now after i'm getting over the shock.
uhh..there will be more later..but i got to got do laundry.
Friday, June 22, 2007
School is officaly finnished...and only 9 weeks till grade 12....and about 365 days till i graduate...not that i'm getting in patient..haha. i can't wait.
i passed math...but i'm stuck with a teacher that i strongly dislike for math next year...the same teacher that i failed miseralbly with last semester.oh well. life's like that.
i have mrs luts twice in a day...and i might have a breakdown..haha.
later.
i passed math...but i'm stuck with a teacher that i strongly dislike for math next year...the same teacher that i failed miseralbly with last semester.oh well. life's like that.
i have mrs luts twice in a day...and i might have a breakdown..haha.
later.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Freedom!!!!!!!!!!
last exam just got over so now i'm sittin gin the school library waiting till 3:20 so i can bug miss underwood for my art stuff back.
Law was crazy easy...
Law was crazy easy...
re-do...it had been a year and i am bored
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE? So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie
Opening Credits: euro trash -slowcoaster
Waking up: for you - tracy chapman
First Day at Highschool: god of wonders -third day
Falling In Love: babaous- regina spector
Fight Song: the parting glass -the wailing jennies
Breaking Up: weightless- see spot run
Prom: remember -happy medium
Life: brain damage -keller williams
Mental Breakdown: scotch and choclate -nickle creek (fitting i think)
Driving: fast as you can - fiona apple ( also fitting)
Flashback: flood - jars of clay
Getting Back Together:gone -switchfoot
Wedding: ne me quitter pas -regina spector ( fitting)
Birth of Child: glavanting -keller williams
Final Battle: get gone -fiona apple
Death Scene: consequence of sounds -regina spector
Funeral Song: forever -ben harper
End Credits: punck rock princess -something corp
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie
Opening Credits: euro trash -slowcoaster
Waking up: for you - tracy chapman
First Day at Highschool: god of wonders -third day
Falling In Love: babaous- regina spector
Fight Song: the parting glass -the wailing jennies
Breaking Up: weightless- see spot run
Prom: remember -happy medium
Life: brain damage -keller williams
Mental Breakdown: scotch and choclate -nickle creek (fitting i think)
Driving: fast as you can - fiona apple ( also fitting)
Flashback: flood - jars of clay
Getting Back Together:gone -switchfoot
Wedding: ne me quitter pas -regina spector ( fitting)
Birth of Child: glavanting -keller williams
Final Battle: get gone -fiona apple
Death Scene: consequence of sounds -regina spector
Funeral Song: forever -ben harper
End Credits: punck rock princess -something corp
on the bright side.
i have my last exam in a few hours...and then i am free!!!!!!!!!!!!
if any one still reads this i will be posting after camp every wekk as i wont be making that many phone calls.
i am out.
erin
if any one still reads this i will be posting after camp every wekk as i wont be making that many phone calls.
i am out.
erin
i am an idiot
yeah the title basically sums up everything i want to say. i am a fuckin idiot..and thanks to it i have lost a good friend.
so mad at myself.
so mad at myself.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
so i can see the light at the end of the tunnel now. i only have my law exam left and that's a joke really. we can use cheat sheets and we havn't really done anything all semester anyway.so now that exam stress is over the stress from other aspects of my life are flooding back. but thank god i'm leaving for camp in a tillte more than a week.i\m nervous and excited at the same time. i have no idea what staff week is like and i don't evn know if i'm packing for the summer or just for the week yet.silly things like that. i'm also starting to think about september...what things do i have time to do or not do?will my courses work out as planned? have i taken to many tough cources? where am i going to work?
as for working..places i'm thinking of applying at:
boys and girls club
seramic
the museam
the saint john art center
blockbuster
java mousse
and good old t-hos! ( tim hortans)
will any of those work out.. i dunno but right now i'm at the place where i don't really care. i just want to back a lunch and a change of clothes and take off. where? i dunno. but italy is looking good. as is france.but maybe i'll get my lisence and start out with some roadtrips, a dart and a big map.any one up for an adventure.who knows where i'll go. maybe sussex..maybe korea..although i might have to fly :P
well thats all for now kids.
-erin hodge
as for working..places i'm thinking of applying at:
boys and girls club
seramic
the museam
the saint john art center
blockbuster
java mousse
and good old t-hos! ( tim hortans)
will any of those work out.. i dunno but right now i'm at the place where i don't really care. i just want to back a lunch and a change of clothes and take off. where? i dunno. but italy is looking good. as is france.but maybe i'll get my lisence and start out with some roadtrips, a dart and a big map.any one up for an adventure.who knows where i'll go. maybe sussex..maybe korea..although i might have to fly :P
well thats all for now kids.
-erin hodge
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
oh exams are looming.
with exams looming and the realization that my future relys on a few simple marks i am hitting the books.And hitting them hard for the first time ever. i have never really put much time into studying for exams before...but this time i'm gonna try.
my courses go like this.
ib art..the exam is just us sitting in a circle discussing our artwork.no biggy.well i have a carp load of projects to do for it but meh.
political science. gonna die.exam is gonna kill me in my sleep.
math. is it possible to die twice....? bahaha
law. bahahaha. uhh. i think i can handel it.
English.commentary is what i am worried about.
but next year is looking up.
Ib art :)
ib art:)
english 122a( totally messed up):(
english121b:)
functions and relations :(
ap history 121 :)
canadian history 120 :)
candaian litariture :)
sociology :)
theory of knowledge!!!! :)
so it will be a full course load but over all enjoyable and a great learning exprience.
......but. if i can somehow get 8ooo$ i am going to costa rica or france or germany or australia or switzerland!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!for the whole year!!!!!!1
kinda unlikely...but i'm gonna try.
-erin-grace
my courses go like this.
ib art..the exam is just us sitting in a circle discussing our artwork.no biggy.well i have a carp load of projects to do for it but meh.
political science. gonna die.exam is gonna kill me in my sleep.
math. is it possible to die twice....? bahaha
law. bahahaha. uhh. i think i can handel it.
English.commentary is what i am worried about.
but next year is looking up.
Ib art :)
ib art:)
english 122a( totally messed up):(
english121b:)
functions and relations :(
ap history 121 :)
canadian history 120 :)
candaian litariture :)
sociology :)
theory of knowledge!!!! :)
so it will be a full course load but over all enjoyable and a great learning exprience.
......but. if i can somehow get 8ooo$ i am going to costa rica or france or germany or australia or switzerland!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!for the whole year!!!!!!1
kinda unlikely...but i'm gonna try.
-erin-grace
Saturday, April 14, 2007
recent news.
-- i will be in the near future be the ...uh... there is no word haha.well i'll have another second cousin.
--i am now able to say i can fold my tounge in two.very important.
--have been greatly enjoying IB art
--have learned to say quadulateral...still working on how to spell it.
--have eaten sushi
--have spit out sushi
--have died my hair...but it had almost no effect.
--have hid in a closet for an hour
--then have come out of the closet..haha. not that way silly.
--have developed a nasty cold
--and got over it.
--have worn a hard hat.
--went to a fake job interview
--poked myself in the eye at least 6 times
--kicked several rocks up the road.
--have watched little miss sunshine sveral times
--have watched 10 seasons of friends
--have walked a mile in someone elses shoes.
--have devloped a love-hate realtionship with charles Dickens
--have become addicted to facebook
--have covered most of my favorite clothes in paint.
--have gone through alot of stain removing stain.
--have broken down and bought new jeans.
--and got paint on them
and these aree just the highlights of my oh so interessting life. Just joking..there had been more excitment. but nows not the time.
--i am now able to say i can fold my tounge in two.very important.
--have been greatly enjoying IB art
--have learned to say quadulateral...still working on how to spell it.
--have eaten sushi
--have spit out sushi
--have died my hair...but it had almost no effect.
--have hid in a closet for an hour
--then have come out of the closet..haha. not that way silly.
--have developed a nasty cold
--and got over it.
--have worn a hard hat.
--went to a fake job interview
--poked myself in the eye at least 6 times
--kicked several rocks up the road.
--have watched little miss sunshine sveral times
--have watched 10 seasons of friends
--have walked a mile in someone elses shoes.
--have devloped a love-hate realtionship with charles Dickens
--have become addicted to facebook
--have covered most of my favorite clothes in paint.
--have gone through alot of stain removing stain.
--have broken down and bought new jeans.
--and got paint on them
and these aree just the highlights of my oh so interessting life. Just joking..there had been more excitment. but nows not the time.
Friday, March 16, 2007
30 hour famine!
Hey everyone.
Once again i'm participating in the world vision 30 hour famine and would love your support and donations for this great cause. i'm sure many of you know about famine, aids and poverty but here are some facts.
Number of people who die each year of water-related diseases: 5 million
Percentage of children living in poverty in the world: almost 50%
Estimated number of deaths worldwide each day linked to extreme poverty: 30,000-50,000
Number of people living with HIV in the world: 40.3 million (more than the population of Canada)
Percentage of all people living with HIV who are in sub-Saharan Africa: almost 64%
Approximate number of people who die each day of AIDS: 8,400 (approximately 3.1 million in 2005)
Number of children under 15 infected with HIV every day: 1,800
Number of seconds that pass between each new HIV infection worldwide every day: 6 .
by following this link you can donate money through me http://www2.worldvision.ca/famine/13060062
thanks
-erin
Once again i'm participating in the world vision 30 hour famine and would love your support and donations for this great cause. i'm sure many of you know about famine, aids and poverty but here are some facts.
Number of people who die each year of water-related diseases: 5 million
Percentage of children living in poverty in the world: almost 50%
Estimated number of deaths worldwide each day linked to extreme poverty: 30,000-50,000
Number of people living with HIV in the world: 40.3 million (more than the population of Canada)
Percentage of all people living with HIV who are in sub-Saharan Africa: almost 64%
Approximate number of people who die each day of AIDS: 8,400 (approximately 3.1 million in 2005)
Number of children under 15 infected with HIV every day: 1,800
Number of seconds that pass between each new HIV infection worldwide every day: 6 .
by following this link you can donate money through me http://www2.worldvision.ca/famine/13060062
thanks
-erin
Monday, March 12, 2007
sigh...
Somedays i really wish that i could run away..far away.Somewhere undiscovered i wish i could live on the side of a mountain somewhere on a beautiful island.With nothing but the sound of the wind and crashing waves.nothing to worry about.no war.no poverty. no children dying.no drugs. no global warming.no aids.no terriorism.no pain.no fighting.no fear.no corrupt governments.no broken hearts.no stress.no ulcers. that place would be beautiful.children would be happy.familys will join together in peace.
sigh.
sigh.
Monday, March 05, 2007
Sunday, March 04, 2007
toast
i'm officially toast.
i feel like crap.
i just broke a 150$ hard drive.
It had all of my familys files on it.
including my dads work stuff i think.
i now have to come up with 150$ to pay for it.
But i don't have a job.
i feel like curling up in a ball and crying...
oh yeah i already did.
-The end
i feel like crap.
i just broke a 150$ hard drive.
It had all of my familys files on it.
including my dads work stuff i think.
i now have to come up with 150$ to pay for it.
But i don't have a job.
i feel like curling up in a ball and crying...
oh yeah i already did.
-The end
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Just Another weekend in Erin's life....
this weekend i traveled up to fredericton with my amigo john hoben. we stayed at genna's house and it was interesstiong time to say the least.
we took the bus friday night.. we saw practically our entire church in the welsford irving and they all wanted details of what we were doing.. and most of them got the wrong idea.so we then almost jumped on a bus for toronto...well i was broke so no we didn't but we wanted. then we had to take a cab to genna's cause john brought enough stuff to last a life time.we thought he was moving in or something.
friday night we chilled and babysat genna's cousins and watched way to much family guy (Johns note: There is no such thing as too much family guy!!), corner gas and bones.
The next morning we got up at 6:45 then headed to the market..i got a new bag and we chased a girl around to find out where she got her coat...turned out that she got it in NYC. john and i had new york style cupcakes for breakfast..then we had samosas that were horrible...john had a donair and i conviced him it was an animal from mexico with their vital organs in their legs. after the market we walked to paul and beth's where john and genna went off and paul beth and i went to the TEC meetings.
then we came back and paul and i played video games for an hour until genna and john got there and genna reminded me that we were suppose to go meet amanda at andrew's 1/2 hour earlier...so we ran o
John: Anyways me and Genna walked to the mall stopping at blockbuster to get the movie "Little miss sunshine". We went to the bulk barn and we got a crapload of candy. We went to the pet store and Genna got yelled at for trying to take a picture of the dogs they had. Anyways, there were some mice that I swear were on steroids. Two or three of them would climb onto one wheel and the smaller ones would just stand there while the bigger one would run. The smaller one would do flips and everything and it was just awsome. Then we saw some clownfish. We left and Genna had to go to the washroom so we ran into McDonalds and I got a double cheese burger. Anyways so we catch the bus and and take it to Kins Place to transfer. Anyways, we get on bus #11 N because Genna says "Ok this is Bus 11, bus 11 always takes me home." anyways, we end up in nearly deserted part of town and just wait there. Anyways, the bus takes us back to Kings place then turns into the 11 S and takes us back to gennas house. We watched a couple episodes of Corner Gas. Then we walked to Paul&Beths and met Erin and they were playing video games.
erin..again:
so i was kicking pauls butt at video games...just joking i can't play vidoe games if you payed me.
so i'm gonna hurry this post up cause i relized that no one in their right mind wants to read all the details.
so we run to my brothers give him his b-day gift and meet amanda. then we run back to paul and beths and chill for a bit. then run off to eat supper..even though it's like 8:00 pm.
then we bum a ride of paul and head to genna's amanda in tow. we watched little miss sunshine (which was amazing..go rent it) and ate way to much candy.
eventually morning time came...i had to wake john up about 8 times..firts words out of his mouth "get off i'm awake" second set of words " where's the candy" .
we woke up enough to walk across town to go to church.
after chuch we got a ride back to gennas and hung out for a bit then ran to the store..that was an adventure in it's self..videos were taken but due to some bad habits i can't allow them to be put on the internet.haha
so then we went home the end.
there was so much more ..but i'm to lazy to type.ask us about it some time.
ps.. alyson shave says hello.
ohh and so does marrissa.
we took the bus friday night.. we saw practically our entire church in the welsford irving and they all wanted details of what we were doing.. and most of them got the wrong idea.so we then almost jumped on a bus for toronto...well i was broke so no we didn't but we wanted. then we had to take a cab to genna's cause john brought enough stuff to last a life time.we thought he was moving in or something.
friday night we chilled and babysat genna's cousins and watched way to much family guy (Johns note: There is no such thing as too much family guy!!), corner gas and bones.
The next morning we got up at 6:45 then headed to the market..i got a new bag and we chased a girl around to find out where she got her coat...turned out that she got it in NYC. john and i had new york style cupcakes for breakfast..then we had samosas that were horrible...john had a donair and i conviced him it was an animal from mexico with their vital organs in their legs. after the market we walked to paul and beth's where john and genna went off and paul beth and i went to the TEC meetings.
then we came back and paul and i played video games for an hour until genna and john got there and genna reminded me that we were suppose to go meet amanda at andrew's 1/2 hour earlier...so we ran o
John: Anyways me and Genna walked to the mall stopping at blockbuster to get the movie "Little miss sunshine". We went to the bulk barn and we got a crapload of candy. We went to the pet store and Genna got yelled at for trying to take a picture of the dogs they had. Anyways, there were some mice that I swear were on steroids. Two or three of them would climb onto one wheel and the smaller ones would just stand there while the bigger one would run. The smaller one would do flips and everything and it was just awsome. Then we saw some clownfish. We left and Genna had to go to the washroom so we ran into McDonalds and I got a double cheese burger. Anyways so we catch the bus and and take it to Kins Place to transfer. Anyways, we get on bus #11 N because Genna says "Ok this is Bus 11, bus 11 always takes me home." anyways, we end up in nearly deserted part of town and just wait there. Anyways, the bus takes us back to Kings place then turns into the 11 S and takes us back to gennas house. We watched a couple episodes of Corner Gas. Then we walked to Paul&Beths and met Erin and they were playing video games.
erin..again:
so i was kicking pauls butt at video games...just joking i can't play vidoe games if you payed me.
so i'm gonna hurry this post up cause i relized that no one in their right mind wants to read all the details.
so we run to my brothers give him his b-day gift and meet amanda. then we run back to paul and beths and chill for a bit. then run off to eat supper..even though it's like 8:00 pm.
then we bum a ride of paul and head to genna's amanda in tow. we watched little miss sunshine (which was amazing..go rent it) and ate way to much candy.
eventually morning time came...i had to wake john up about 8 times..firts words out of his mouth "get off i'm awake" second set of words " where's the candy" .
we woke up enough to walk across town to go to church.
after chuch we got a ride back to gennas and hung out for a bit then ran to the store..that was an adventure in it's self..videos were taken but due to some bad habits i can't allow them to be put on the internet.haha
so then we went home the end.
there was so much more ..but i'm to lazy to type.ask us about it some time.
ps.. alyson shave says hello.
ohh and so does marrissa.
Monday, February 05, 2007
The update...
Exams are over and done with..until june.
i have to take math again...
my world issues mark was 51% higher than my math mark.
my old classes:
english
enviromental science
world issues
modern history
functions and relations (math)
my new classes:
IB art
Political Sci
Geometry and applications (math)
English
law
so i think my plan for next year is to take:
english 121 AP
math 112 funtions and relations
modern history 121 AP
IB art
Theory of Knowledge 120
french 112
economics 120
journalism 120
co-op
co-op
--alternates--
canadian lit 120
sociology 120
then after grade 12 i'll head off to fredericton to go to saint thomaas to take the justice and globilization course which is a combo of economics, sociology, and religious studies.
then after four years i'll come out with my BA..take a year or 2 off and work/travel
maybe move to NYC for a bit.
then i'm gonna go back to school for my masters of divinity at wycliff in toronto.
so it's not like i have alot of plans or expectations...haha.
i have to take math again...
my world issues mark was 51% higher than my math mark.
my old classes:
english
enviromental science
world issues
modern history
functions and relations (math)
my new classes:
IB art
Political Sci
Geometry and applications (math)
English
law
so i think my plan for next year is to take:
english 121 AP
math 112 funtions and relations
modern history 121 AP
IB art
Theory of Knowledge 120
french 112
economics 120
journalism 120
co-op
co-op
--alternates--
canadian lit 120
sociology 120
then after grade 12 i'll head off to fredericton to go to saint thomaas to take the justice and globilization course which is a combo of economics, sociology, and religious studies.
then after four years i'll come out with my BA..take a year or 2 off and work/travel
maybe move to NYC for a bit.
then i'm gonna go back to school for my masters of divinity at wycliff in toronto.
so it's not like i have alot of plans or expectations...haha.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Monday, January 15, 2007
x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking.
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.
[ x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[x ]You have jumped out of a moving vehicle
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then
people gave you weird looks
=5
[x] You have ran into a tree/bush.
[x ] You have tried to lick your cheek.
[x] You have tried to lick your elbow.
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little
Star have the same rhythm.
[x]you just tried to sing them
i can't believe i just did
=5
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[x] you have choked on your own spit .
[ ]You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[x] You've never seen the Matrix the whole way through.
[ ] You type only with two fingers.
=3
[x ]You have accidentally caught something on fire
[ ] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.
[x ] You have fallen asleep in class
[ ] If someone says "fart" you laugh.
=3
[ ] Sometimes you just stop thinking
[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about
[x ] People often shake their heads when they talk to you.
[x ] You are often told to use your "inside voice".
[x ] You use your fingers to do simple math.
=4
[ ] You have eaten a bug
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something
more important
[ x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and
didn't realize it(NY!)
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in
your hand.(or on your head.)
[ ] You have ran around naked in your house.
=3
[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they
say will happen to you if you don't.
[x ] You break a lot of things
[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you.
[x ] You tilt your head when you're confused
[x ] You have fallen out of your chair before
=3
[x] When you're laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling...
[x] The word "um" is used many times a day.
=2
=28 out of 38..pretty sad
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.
[ x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[x ]You have jumped out of a moving vehicle
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then
people gave you weird looks
=5
[x] You have ran into a tree/bush.
[x ] You have tried to lick your cheek.
[x] You have tried to lick your elbow.
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little
Star have the same rhythm.
[x]you just tried to sing them
i can't believe i just did
=5
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[x] you have choked on your own spit .
[ ]You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[x] You've never seen the Matrix the whole way through.
[ ] You type only with two fingers.
=3
[x ]You have accidentally caught something on fire
[ ] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.
[x ] You have fallen asleep in class
[ ] If someone says "fart" you laugh.
=3
[ ] Sometimes you just stop thinking
[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about
[x ] People often shake their heads when they talk to you.
[x ] You are often told to use your "inside voice".
[x ] You use your fingers to do simple math.
=4
[ ] You have eaten a bug
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something
more important
[ x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and
didn't realize it(NY!)
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in
your hand.(or on your head.)
[ ] You have ran around naked in your house.
=3
[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they
say will happen to you if you don't.
[x ] You break a lot of things
[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you.
[x ] You tilt your head when you're confused
[x ] You have fallen out of your chair before
=3
[x] When you're laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling...
[x] The word "um" is used many times a day.
=2
=28 out of 38..pretty sad
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
here's a parody i wrote for English class. Mind the language...i was trying to imitate J.D Salinger's writing style.I'ts also kinda long.
Rumpelstiltskin
If you really want to hear about it then the first thing you’ll want to know is my name and how I got into this goddamn situation in the first place. Well about the name you can just forget about that, I’ve had enough problems with names as you’ll soon find out. Well that is if you even bother to read this depressing thing. So how I got myself into this mess. You can blame that on my phoney father he made one goddamn slip of the tongue that sure cost me a lot of trouble. See my father’s a miller so life is pretty lousy to begin with. So anyway he had to go talk to this king, who the hell know’s why, and he tried to make himself look all important and crap and told the king that he had a daughter that could spin straw into gold, that’s me. Then the king got all excited. I sure hate it when someone gets all excited over something so foolish as that. He told my father to bring me to the king to spin gold for him.
So this king locked me in a room and told me if I hadn’t spun this pile of straw into gold by the morning that he would kill me. Talk about depressing, I can’t hardly stand to think about it. Well I did what any other person would do – I cried. Anyways that’s not important, back to the story this stupid little man appeared out of nowhere and asked me what was wrong. He was such a phoney... he didn’t care what was wrong. I hate it when people pretend like they care and all but really don’t give a damn. So I told him what I needed to do. So then, of all things, he started to bargain with me. I was so depressed. He said that he could spin the gold if I gave him something. So I tossed him my necklace - I hated that necklace anyway. It was a stupid gift from my phoney aunt Ruth, it made my neck itch.
Any way to this little man did what he said and when the king came in the morning and saw the gold he got so greedy that he wanted more! So The same thing happened the next night - except I had to give the stupid man my ring instead, I did like that thing. That ring was my mother’s before she died, anyway that made me so depressed. So when the king came in the morning he still wanted more gold... He told me that if I spun the gold for him than I could be his wife. His goddamn wife! What a phoney, he went from threatening to kill me to wanting to marry me in a day. Well since my father is a poor miller I had to jump at the chance to marry someone rich. So that night he locked me in a room again. It was pretty stupid of him to lock up his wife to be in a room as a slave... but what could I do about it? So I was sure hoping that the stupid little man would come back.. but the problem was that I didn’t have anything else to give him. So when he came back he told me that I would have to give him my first born child... that was more depressing than anything. But I didn’t have any other choice so I promised him my first child.
So a lousily year later I had my first child and had completely forgotten about that phoney man that spun the gold for me. Then He randomly appeared in my room and insisted that I give him my child. He was so friggin impatient about it too, I hate that. Any way there was no way in hell that I could just hand over my baby. So he gave me a deal – that if I could guess his name in three lousy days that I could keep my child. All night I guessed names and every time he would say “it’s not my name.”
The next day I had a stupid little messenger sent out to get as many names as he could. Not a single name was the one! I hate that people can’t do a simple job like finding a name right, like how stupid can you be. Any way I sent the messenger out the third day and when he came back he told me that he couldn’t find a single new flipping name. But he told me that he did overhear something that might help me out. He had found this funny old man dancing around a fire saying :
'To-day I bake, to-morrow brew,
the next I'll have the young queen's child.
Ha, glad am I that no one knew
that Rumpelstiltskin I am styled.'
So I figured that it must be the same stupid little man. Who the hell is named Rumpelstiltskin? So when he came back that night I guessed a few stupid names to make him think that I couldn’t guess and then I guessed Rumpelstiltskin .Well he got so frigging angry that he stuck his right foot in the ground and that got him even more angry so he pulled on his left leg as hard as he could, I don’t know what kind of idiot would do that, well he pulled it so hard that he tore himself in two. How depressing is that.
The End.
By Erin Hodge
A parody based on Rumpelstiltskin by Brothers Grimm using the form of Catcher in the Rye
Rumpelstiltskin
If you really want to hear about it then the first thing you’ll want to know is my name and how I got into this goddamn situation in the first place. Well about the name you can just forget about that, I’ve had enough problems with names as you’ll soon find out. Well that is if you even bother to read this depressing thing. So how I got myself into this mess. You can blame that on my phoney father he made one goddamn slip of the tongue that sure cost me a lot of trouble. See my father’s a miller so life is pretty lousy to begin with. So anyway he had to go talk to this king, who the hell know’s why, and he tried to make himself look all important and crap and told the king that he had a daughter that could spin straw into gold, that’s me. Then the king got all excited. I sure hate it when someone gets all excited over something so foolish as that. He told my father to bring me to the king to spin gold for him.
So this king locked me in a room and told me if I hadn’t spun this pile of straw into gold by the morning that he would kill me. Talk about depressing, I can’t hardly stand to think about it. Well I did what any other person would do – I cried. Anyways that’s not important, back to the story this stupid little man appeared out of nowhere and asked me what was wrong. He was such a phoney... he didn’t care what was wrong. I hate it when people pretend like they care and all but really don’t give a damn. So I told him what I needed to do. So then, of all things, he started to bargain with me. I was so depressed. He said that he could spin the gold if I gave him something. So I tossed him my necklace - I hated that necklace anyway. It was a stupid gift from my phoney aunt Ruth, it made my neck itch.
Any way to this little man did what he said and when the king came in the morning and saw the gold he got so greedy that he wanted more! So The same thing happened the next night - except I had to give the stupid man my ring instead, I did like that thing. That ring was my mother’s before she died, anyway that made me so depressed. So when the king came in the morning he still wanted more gold... He told me that if I spun the gold for him than I could be his wife. His goddamn wife! What a phoney, he went from threatening to kill me to wanting to marry me in a day. Well since my father is a poor miller I had to jump at the chance to marry someone rich. So that night he locked me in a room again. It was pretty stupid of him to lock up his wife to be in a room as a slave... but what could I do about it? So I was sure hoping that the stupid little man would come back.. but the problem was that I didn’t have anything else to give him. So when he came back he told me that I would have to give him my first born child... that was more depressing than anything. But I didn’t have any other choice so I promised him my first child.
So a lousily year later I had my first child and had completely forgotten about that phoney man that spun the gold for me. Then He randomly appeared in my room and insisted that I give him my child. He was so friggin impatient about it too, I hate that. Any way there was no way in hell that I could just hand over my baby. So he gave me a deal – that if I could guess his name in three lousy days that I could keep my child. All night I guessed names and every time he would say “it’s not my name.”
The next day I had a stupid little messenger sent out to get as many names as he could. Not a single name was the one! I hate that people can’t do a simple job like finding a name right, like how stupid can you be. Any way I sent the messenger out the third day and when he came back he told me that he couldn’t find a single new flipping name. But he told me that he did overhear something that might help me out. He had found this funny old man dancing around a fire saying :
'To-day I bake, to-morrow brew,
the next I'll have the young queen's child.
Ha, glad am I that no one knew
that Rumpelstiltskin I am styled.'
So I figured that it must be the same stupid little man. Who the hell is named Rumpelstiltskin? So when he came back that night I guessed a few stupid names to make him think that I couldn’t guess and then I guessed Rumpelstiltskin .Well he got so frigging angry that he stuck his right foot in the ground and that got him even more angry so he pulled on his left leg as hard as he could, I don’t know what kind of idiot would do that, well he pulled it so hard that he tore himself in two. How depressing is that.
The End.
By Erin Hodge
A parody based on Rumpelstiltskin by Brothers Grimm using the form of Catcher in the Rye
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE? So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie
Opening Credits: black cold blues-laura veirs
Waking up: i will remeber you- sarah mclachlan
First Day at Highschool - gone- switchfoot
Falling In Love: shopping- barenaked ladies
Fight Song: to little to late -- barenaked ladies
Breaking Up: almost--sarah harmer
Prom: wild world--cat stevens
Life: fraggle rock--relient k
Mental Breakdown: morning has broken- cat stevens
Driving: one chance -modest mouse
Flashback: open arms- tracy chapman
Getting Back Together: the prodical's song--paul oakley
Wedding: testing 1,2,3--barenaked ladies ( haha)
Birth of Child: holding out for a hero- jennifer saunders
Final Battle: after the rain- aaron and jeffery
Death Scene: silver road--sarah harmer
Funeral Song: ode to divorce--regina specktor ( at least i didn't get it for the wedding one)
End Credits: still- happy medium
side note.This would make a very horrible movie.
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie
Opening Credits: black cold blues-laura veirs
Waking up: i will remeber you- sarah mclachlan
First Day at Highschool - gone- switchfoot
Falling In Love: shopping- barenaked ladies
Fight Song: to little to late -- barenaked ladies
Breaking Up: almost--sarah harmer
Prom: wild world--cat stevens
Life: fraggle rock--relient k
Mental Breakdown: morning has broken- cat stevens
Driving: one chance -modest mouse
Flashback: open arms- tracy chapman
Getting Back Together: the prodical's song--paul oakley
Wedding: testing 1,2,3--barenaked ladies ( haha)
Birth of Child: holding out for a hero- jennifer saunders
Final Battle: after the rain- aaron and jeffery
Death Scene: silver road--sarah harmer
Funeral Song: ode to divorce--regina specktor ( at least i didn't get it for the wedding one)
End Credits: still- happy medium
side note.This would make a very horrible movie.
Monday, January 08, 2007
i Just found out that one of my good friends from Ont Has died recently. We lost touch several years ago but it still seems odd. 16 year olds shouldn't be dying of cancer.
William and i used to spend hours singing backstreet boys on his kareeokee machine.And Climbing his roof and sliding off.
i can't seem to understand why this happens.
William and i used to spend hours singing backstreet boys on his kareeokee machine.And Climbing his roof and sliding off.
i can't seem to understand why this happens.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Happy new year folks!
This was most definalty my favorite new years so far.
John and i went skating..well i skated and john pulled himself along the boards :)
Then we enjoyed a surprisingly well done show of fireworks.
so i hope you all have a wonderful new year.
John and i went skating..well i skated and john pulled himself along the boards :)
Then we enjoyed a surprisingly well done show of fireworks.
so i hope you all have a wonderful new year.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Thursday, December 21, 2006
40 questions!
1. Are you wearing a necklace?
yep..jen fry just gave it to me.
2. What is the last thing you got in the mail?
University application form
3. Crush?
i don't like the word crush...
4. What color is your shirt?
black
5. How many bedrooms do you have in your house?
4
6. What song are you listening to?
apres moi my regina spector
7. What was the last mall you've been to?
lancaster.
8. Are you alone?
indeed
9. Do you have any older siblings?
yeah X2
10. What was the last thing you ate?
pizza
11. Who was the last person to come over to your house?
No clue
12. Who was the last person to call you?
John
13. Who was the last person who texted you?
don't have a cell phone
14. What should you be doing?
writing an essay thats worht 30% of my final grade and i havn;t started.
15. Who is the last person you IMed?
Matt
16. Did you go out to eat yesterday?
nope
17. What are you thinking right now?
thinking about sitting in social studies class in grade 6 on sept. 11th when we found out that the twin towers had been hit.
18. What color are your pants?
PJ's! gray with little snow men
19. What color is your keyboard?
off white
20. What do you feel like eating/drinking?
redbull
21. Are you in college?
not yet
22. What is the last phrase you wrote?
good good.
23. Are you bored?
nope..don't get bored easily..to much to think about
24. How many teeth do you have?
all of them minus 3 and 1/2 wisdom teeth.
25. Do you wear glasses?
yep since grade 7.although most don't remember that i wear glasses
26. What color are your shoes?
bluish
27. Last thing you drank?flat 7-up
28. Last kiss?
saving that.
29. What are you doing right now?
procrastinating
30. What are the last words you said?
is E.R on?
31. Do you have clothes on?
yes
32. Best part about today?
varity show at school
33. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be and who with?
on the top of a mountain somewhere on a undiscovered island, enjoying solitude
34. Do you like llamas?
yeah..beacause they give us fleace
35. Do you have a cut on your pointer finger?no but i have 2 scars and a hangnail
36. Where is your cell phone?
non existant
37. Do you have any friends named Robbie?
nope.
38. Do you have any friends named Nikki?
yepp
39. Do you have any friends named Mary?
nope
40. What were you doing last night?
i hung out with a girl who speaks very little english.Then watched the world trade centers. then stayed up thinking about it the entire night litterly.
1. Are you wearing a necklace?
yep..jen fry just gave it to me.
2. What is the last thing you got in the mail?
University application form
3. Crush?
i don't like the word crush...
4. What color is your shirt?
black
5. How many bedrooms do you have in your house?
4
6. What song are you listening to?
apres moi my regina spector
7. What was the last mall you've been to?
lancaster.
8. Are you alone?
indeed
9. Do you have any older siblings?
yeah X2
10. What was the last thing you ate?
pizza
11. Who was the last person to come over to your house?
No clue
12. Who was the last person to call you?
John
13. Who was the last person who texted you?
don't have a cell phone
14. What should you be doing?
writing an essay thats worht 30% of my final grade and i havn;t started.
15. Who is the last person you IMed?
Matt
16. Did you go out to eat yesterday?
nope
17. What are you thinking right now?
thinking about sitting in social studies class in grade 6 on sept. 11th when we found out that the twin towers had been hit.
18. What color are your pants?
PJ's! gray with little snow men
19. What color is your keyboard?
off white
20. What do you feel like eating/drinking?
redbull
21. Are you in college?
not yet
22. What is the last phrase you wrote?
good good.
23. Are you bored?
nope..don't get bored easily..to much to think about
24. How many teeth do you have?
all of them minus 3 and 1/2 wisdom teeth.
25. Do you wear glasses?
yep since grade 7.although most don't remember that i wear glasses
26. What color are your shoes?
bluish
27. Last thing you drank?flat 7-up
28. Last kiss?
saving that.
29. What are you doing right now?
procrastinating
30. What are the last words you said?
is E.R on?
31. Do you have clothes on?
yes
32. Best part about today?
varity show at school
33. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be and who with?
on the top of a mountain somewhere on a undiscovered island, enjoying solitude
34. Do you like llamas?
yeah..beacause they give us fleace
35. Do you have a cut on your pointer finger?no but i have 2 scars and a hangnail
36. Where is your cell phone?
non existant
37. Do you have any friends named Robbie?
nope.
38. Do you have any friends named Nikki?
yepp
39. Do you have any friends named Mary?
nope
40. What were you doing last night?
i hung out with a girl who speaks very little english.Then watched the world trade centers. then stayed up thinking about it the entire night litterly.
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Birches
Birches
Robert Frost
When I see birches bend to left and right
Across the lines of straighter darker trees,
I like to think some boy’s been swinging them.
But swinging doesn’t bend them down to stay.
Ice-storms do that. Often you must have seen them
Loaded with ice a sunny winter morning
After a rain. They click upon themselves
As the breeze rises, and turn many-coloured
As the stir cracks and crazes their enamel.
Soon the sun’s warmth makes them shed crystal shells
Shattering and avalanching on the snow-crust
Such heaps of broken glass to sweep away
You’d think the inner dome of heaven had fallen.
They are dragged to the withered bracken by the load,
And they seem not to break; though once they are bowed
So low for long, they never right themselves:
You may see their trunks arching in the woods
Years afterwards, trailing their leaves on the ground,
Like girls on hands and knees that throw their hair
Before them over their heads to dry in the sun.
But I was going to say when Truth broke in
With all her matter-of-fact about the ice-storm,
I should prefer to have some boy bend them
As he went out and in to fetch the cows—
Some boy too far from town to learn baseball,
Whose only play was what he found himself,
Summer or winter, and could play alone.
One by one he subdued his father’s trees
By riding them down over and over again
Until he took the stiffness out of them,
And not one but hung limp, not one was left
For him to conquer. He learned all there was
To learn about not launching out too soon
And so not carrying the tree away
Clear to the ground. He always kept his poise
To the top branches, climbing carefully
With the same pains you use to fill a cup
Up to the brim, and even above the brim.
Then he flung outward, feet first, with a swish,
Kicking his way down through the air to the ground.
So was I once myself a swinger of birches.
And so I dream of going back to be.
It’s when I’m weary of considerations,
And life is too much like a pathless wood
Where your face burns and tickles with the cobwebs
Broken across it, and one eye is weeping
From a twig’s having lashed across it open.
I’d like to get away from earth awhile
And then come back to it and begin over.
May no fate willfully misunderstand me
And half grant what I wish and snatch me away
Not to return. Earth’s the right place for love:
I don’t know where it’s likely to go better.
I’d like to go by climbing a birch tree
And climb black branches up a snow-white trunk
Toward heaven, till the tree could bear no more,
But dipped its top and set me down again.
That would be good both going and coming back.
One could do worse than be a swinger of birches
Robert Frost
When I see birches bend to left and right
Across the lines of straighter darker trees,
I like to think some boy’s been swinging them.
But swinging doesn’t bend them down to stay.
Ice-storms do that. Often you must have seen them
Loaded with ice a sunny winter morning
After a rain. They click upon themselves
As the breeze rises, and turn many-coloured
As the stir cracks and crazes their enamel.
Soon the sun’s warmth makes them shed crystal shells
Shattering and avalanching on the snow-crust
Such heaps of broken glass to sweep away
You’d think the inner dome of heaven had fallen.
They are dragged to the withered bracken by the load,
And they seem not to break; though once they are bowed
So low for long, they never right themselves:
You may see their trunks arching in the woods
Years afterwards, trailing their leaves on the ground,
Like girls on hands and knees that throw their hair
Before them over their heads to dry in the sun.
But I was going to say when Truth broke in
With all her matter-of-fact about the ice-storm,
I should prefer to have some boy bend them
As he went out and in to fetch the cows—
Some boy too far from town to learn baseball,
Whose only play was what he found himself,
Summer or winter, and could play alone.
One by one he subdued his father’s trees
By riding them down over and over again
Until he took the stiffness out of them,
And not one but hung limp, not one was left
For him to conquer. He learned all there was
To learn about not launching out too soon
And so not carrying the tree away
Clear to the ground. He always kept his poise
To the top branches, climbing carefully
With the same pains you use to fill a cup
Up to the brim, and even above the brim.
Then he flung outward, feet first, with a swish,
Kicking his way down through the air to the ground.
So was I once myself a swinger of birches.
And so I dream of going back to be.
It’s when I’m weary of considerations,
And life is too much like a pathless wood
Where your face burns and tickles with the cobwebs
Broken across it, and one eye is weeping
From a twig’s having lashed across it open.
I’d like to get away from earth awhile
And then come back to it and begin over.
May no fate willfully misunderstand me
And half grant what I wish and snatch me away
Not to return. Earth’s the right place for love:
I don’t know where it’s likely to go better.
I’d like to go by climbing a birch tree
And climb black branches up a snow-white trunk
Toward heaven, till the tree could bear no more,
But dipped its top and set me down again.
That would be good both going and coming back.
One could do worse than be a swinger of birches
Friday, December 15, 2006
I'm starting to think that our entire generation has been brain washed into thinking that if we don't go to university or finnish high school that we can do nothing with our lives.that people who don't continue with school have no hope for a happy life.it breaks my heart that this is what we are taught.sure university can be great.sure you might get a better job, sure you may make more money..but happiness?.happiness has nothing to do with the level of education you recieved.Saying this dosn't meen that i'm not going on to university or even encourage others not to either.i'm just thinking that god has a plan for everyones life.no matter what grade you finnished.education is a wonderful privilage..but you don't need a degree to say that you have been educated.i would love to simply talk to people..travel the world..And get an eduaction from first hand expirences..not from a text book.
-erin
-erin
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Monday, December 04, 2006
12"But before all this, they will lay hands on you and persecute you. They will deliver you to synagogues and prisons, and you will be brought before kings and governors, and all on account of my name. 13This will result in your being witnesses to them. 14But make up your mind not to worry beforehand how you will defend yourselves. 15For I will give you words and wisdom that none of your adversaries will be able to resist or contradict. 16You will be betrayed even by parents, brothers, relatives and friends, and they will put some of you to death. 17All men will hate you because of me.18But not a hair of your head will perish. 19By standing firm you will gain life. Luke 21:12-19
my heart crys out for that friend of mine on the bus today.The girl who bravely stood up for her faith when being tormented and bullied. my heart is weeping yet i have hope. I stood up on the bus today to try to help this friend of mine along with josh and my other friend.it was praticly impossible for me to say anything because of where i was seated. but i prayed i prayed for my friend and the boy who was tormenting her and drilling her about her faith, i prayed for josh and other christians on the that they may see what was happening.then for some reason god told be to sit up and look around.. and you know what i saw, Christians. Lots of Christians! fellow Preacher kids, new christians, christians up and down the rows!
And i know that if i can name several then there may be some who i don't even know about.And with that i had hope! We are not alone!We need to stand up when we see others being tormented, if that meens trying to help by praying, being part of the conversationand doing your best to take some of the pain on yourself, or getting of the bus a few stops to late to talk to the person.
18But not a hair of your head will perish. 19By standing firm you will gain life.
my heart crys out for that friend of mine on the bus today.The girl who bravely stood up for her faith when being tormented and bullied. my heart is weeping yet i have hope. I stood up on the bus today to try to help this friend of mine along with josh and my other friend.it was praticly impossible for me to say anything because of where i was seated. but i prayed i prayed for my friend and the boy who was tormenting her and drilling her about her faith, i prayed for josh and other christians on the that they may see what was happening.then for some reason god told be to sit up and look around.. and you know what i saw, Christians. Lots of Christians! fellow Preacher kids, new christians, christians up and down the rows!
And i know that if i can name several then there may be some who i don't even know about.And with that i had hope! We are not alone!We need to stand up when we see others being tormented, if that meens trying to help by praying, being part of the conversationand doing your best to take some of the pain on yourself, or getting of the bus a few stops to late to talk to the person.
18But not a hair of your head will perish. 19By standing firm you will gain life.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
“If a man is offered a fact which goes against his instincts, he will scrutinize it closely, and unless the evidence is overwhelming, he will refuse to believe it. If, on the other hand, he is offered something which affords a reason for acting in accordance to his instincts, he will accept it even on the slightest evidence.” — Bertrand Russell, Roads to Freedom
Sunday, November 26, 2006
open your entire music list, turn on shuffle/random, hit next track for each question, write the title and then the band in brackets, add personal comments if you want. no cheating, that's stupid.
How am I feeling today?
love come around
By: the hill billy band
Will I get far in life?
gravity
By: sarah breilles
How do my friends see me?
ancient walls of flowers
By: marcy playground
When will I get Married?
it's only me
By: barenaked ladies
What's my theme song?
the vampires of new york
By: marcy playground
What is the story of my life?
Rialto
By: laura viers
How can I get ahead in life?
beautiful dawn
By: the wailing jennys
What is my best feature?
it's raining men
By: geri halliwell
How is today going to be?
closer to fine
By: indigo girls
What is in store for this weekend?
old man
By: the wailing jennys
What is my life like at the moment?
rebal sodville
By: marcy playground
What song describes my secrets?
shoebox
By: barenaked ladies
What song will they play at my funeral?:
another postcard
By: barenaked ladies
How does the world see me?
take it down
By: wailing jennys
Will I have a happy life?
secure yourself
By: indigo girls
What do my friends really think of me?
The parting glass
By: indigo girls
What is my theme song while I walk down the street?
ever fallen in love
By: pete yorn
What song plays while I sleep?
get in a line
By: barenaked ladies
What is my amazing dance song?
love bug
By: marcy playgroud
How do I relax?
in love with the 80's
By: relient k
Well that was compleatly pointless.yet somewhat interessting.
How am I feeling today?
love come around
By: the hill billy band
Will I get far in life?
gravity
By: sarah breilles
How do my friends see me?
ancient walls of flowers
By: marcy playground
When will I get Married?
it's only me
By: barenaked ladies
What's my theme song?
the vampires of new york
By: marcy playground
What is the story of my life?
Rialto
By: laura viers
How can I get ahead in life?
beautiful dawn
By: the wailing jennys
What is my best feature?
it's raining men
By: geri halliwell
How is today going to be?
closer to fine
By: indigo girls
What is in store for this weekend?
old man
By: the wailing jennys
What is my life like at the moment?
rebal sodville
By: marcy playground
What song describes my secrets?
shoebox
By: barenaked ladies
What song will they play at my funeral?:
another postcard
By: barenaked ladies
How does the world see me?
take it down
By: wailing jennys
Will I have a happy life?
secure yourself
By: indigo girls
What do my friends really think of me?
The parting glass
By: indigo girls
What is my theme song while I walk down the street?
ever fallen in love
By: pete yorn
What song plays while I sleep?
get in a line
By: barenaked ladies
What is my amazing dance song?
love bug
By: marcy playgroud
How do I relax?
in love with the 80's
By: relient k
Well that was compleatly pointless.yet somewhat interessting.
Friday, November 24, 2006
Monday, November 20, 2006
my head is spinning.
today i decided to take all my photos and crap of my bullitin bored and reorganize them. in the process i found i picture of my next dorr neighbour from when i lived in wingham.This lady had such an impact on my life she has no idea she was one of my best friends and the closest thing i had to a grandmother.i thougt back to when i first met her.
i was 5 or 6 i think and i was walking down the street with my mother when on my neighboors lawn i saw a cat. i ran up to the cat to pet it. my mother called me back, but the lady sitting onm the porch laughed and said it was alright.after that we were great friends. at first i would go over to her house to see the cat ( alec was his name)but eventually i would go over to see her.the cat died my our friendship did not. we would spend hours talking over ice tea, she listened to me..she cared.when i moved to N.B we lost touch and it saddens me. one year my family went back to visit and i knocked on her door praying that she still lived there. she answered the door and we spent the day together, she took me out for ice cream and we talked and laughed together.Again we lost touch. i thought about her often..then last year i started writing her a letter about how much i appreciated her and how i missed her . i never sent it.
so today when i found the picture i looked closely and there to the left of her was the numbers on her house.And with that i could sent her a letter as i lived on the same strett and it was such a small town that we all had the same postal code.i remebered the day i took the pisture..just before i moved.i ran downstairs excited that i could finally sned her a letter. my parent were sitting at the table talking, i showed them the picture and told them my plan.then they told me that when they were in wingham this summer them found out that she had died from cancer ..last year.
so now i'm lost.i keep thinking that if i had sent that letter a year ago then she would have know that i loved her and how much she touched my life.i con't believe that i let us lose touch.
i'm grieving and it way sound silly because i havn't seen her in 5 years but something is different. i had always pictured going back someday and knocking on her door again and going for ice cream.but know that will never happen.she's gone.
the worst part is that i can't simply hope that i'll meet her agina someday in heaven..because i don't even know if she belived.
that brings up more thoughts.my like this my cancer?she wan't even that old! she wasn't done her life! how could god let her die?!
maybe i'm just over reacting but i've never hasd to deal with death before, i've never met my grand faters and my gradmothers both died when i was little.
i've always wanted to have grandparents and she was the closest thing i had and now i have nothing.
so i think the whole point of this post was to encourage you to send those letters, so make those phone calls. tell the people that you love just how important they are to you ..before it's to late.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
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Saturday, November 11, 2006
Why?
Why do the babies starve
When there's enough food to feed the world
Why when there're so many of us
Are there people still alone
Why are the missiles called peace keepers
When they're aimed to kill
Why is a woman still not safe
When she's in her home
Love is hate
War is peace
No is yes
And we're all free
But somebody's gonna have to answer
The time is coming soon
Admidst all these questions and contradictions
There're some who seek the truth
But somebody's gonna have to answer
The time is coming soon
When the blind remove their blinders
And the speechless speak the truth
-tracy chapman
When there's enough food to feed the world
Why when there're so many of us
Are there people still alone
Why are the missiles called peace keepers
When they're aimed to kill
Why is a woman still not safe
When she's in her home
Love is hate
War is peace
No is yes
And we're all free
But somebody's gonna have to answer
The time is coming soon
Admidst all these questions and contradictions
There're some who seek the truth
But somebody's gonna have to answer
The time is coming soon
When the blind remove their blinders
And the speechless speak the truth
-tracy chapman
Sunday, November 05, 2006
The weekend.
So this weekend was exciting to say the least.i was easily persuaded to go to fredericton to visit my friend genna.soon after i arrived i got a phone call from my mother telling me that i have to be in church the following morning to do a puppet performance...this sent me into an immediate panic and calling many people long distance on genna's cell phone(payed by her mother).
To sum up my weekend i have had to much coffee,rode a crapy bike that was to big for me, ate a 6 year olds halloween candy,went to the meeting place,the market,, almost got hit by a few cars,nearly froze to death,hung out in my brothers apartment when he wasn't there with 3 people who also did live there and watched reruns of lost,named my new hat(luther) visited amanda fricker, went to a "birthday" party, had light saber battle in my friends living room and had some definate firsts and lasts...ok maybe not all lasts.
so now i is sunday afternoon and i have a crap load of studying to do, a bus ride home. but all i want to do is sleep and take tylonol.
well i'm off.
Erin.
Friday, October 27, 2006
i wish i was a child again
what is going on?
where has the time gone?
i can't seem to wrap my head around the things that change in such a short time.
i just found out that one of my best friends from when i was 10 or so is pregnant. i can't seem to get it.
how did things change?
ohh there are days that i wish i was a child again.
please keep this friend of mine in your prayers.
-erin
where has the time gone?
i can't seem to wrap my head around the things that change in such a short time.
i just found out that one of my best friends from when i was 10 or so is pregnant. i can't seem to get it.
how did things change?
ohh there are days that i wish i was a child again.
please keep this friend of mine in your prayers.
-erin
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Monday, October 23, 2006
so i was thinking again about how awsome god is to have created the universe but then out of no where i started singing yet another song:
I have a maker
He formed my heart,
before even time began
My life was in his hands
He knows my name
He knows my every thought,
He sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call
I have a father,
he calls me his own
He'll never leave me,
no matter where I go
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call
He hears me when I call
this song sums up just what i'm thinking and prasing god for right now. God made such a wonderful creation and yet he stills knows ME! wow well i just find that so hard to understand yet so wonderful. i thought i share that with you.
-erin
I have a maker
He formed my heart,
before even time began
My life was in his hands
He knows my name
He knows my every thought,
He sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call
I have a father,
he calls me his own
He'll never leave me,
no matter where I go
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call
He hears me when I call
this song sums up just what i'm thinking and prasing god for right now. God made such a wonderful creation and yet he stills knows ME! wow well i just find that so hard to understand yet so wonderful. i thought i share that with you.
-erin
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Last night i didn't sleep much i was up allnight reading, thinking and staring at the stars from my bedroom window. And it hit me how awsome the creation is! a huge universe so huge that i cannot even begin to comprehend.i was looking at the stars thinking and i started to think about how far away the stars are. if we look at something 5 lightyears away we are really seeing the past.and if we could see way out into a distant gallexy let us say 2 million lightyear away we are really seeing what happend 2 million years ago!that even before the world began! Our universe is so great that our creator well their are no words that begin to explain.then theirs the fact that even now our world is still expanding..it's consently changing and getting greater! now on this many of us may be on different pages but i personally belive that you can be a christian and be a creationist and still belive in the Big Bang theory. so lets say that god created the world with a "big bang" and the universe is still expanding and so logiclly somday it will be so great that it will collaps and shrink back down again to that ball of gas. that brigns up the question: is that what god meens by a new heaven and a new earth? but that also brings up another question: has it happened before. of course we cannot possibly know for sure because all life would be desroyed in the collaps other than primal elements. i don't know what i think about that possiblity but somewhere within me something is saying no. this is the first time.
any way i encourage you to take the time to simply stare at the stars and stand in awe of our awsome creator!
Lord Of all creation
Of water, earth, and sky
The heavens are
Your tabernacle
Glory to the Lord on high
God of wonders
beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares
Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth
Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light
When I stumble in the darkness
I will call Your name by night
God of wonders
beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares
Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
God of wonders
beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
Precious Lord reveal Your heart to me
Father holy, holy
The universe declares
Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
any way i encourage you to take the time to simply stare at the stars and stand in awe of our awsome creator!
Lord Of all creation
Of water, earth, and sky
The heavens are
Your tabernacle
Glory to the Lord on high
God of wonders
beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares
Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth
Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light
When I stumble in the darkness
I will call Your name by night
God of wonders
beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares
Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
God of wonders
beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
Precious Lord reveal Your heart to me
Father holy, holy
The universe declares
Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
this story from the fourth centry but is retold in brian mclaren's book :A generous orthodoxy.
it sums up how eastern orthodox church sees the importance of the incarnation. in jesus god came as a human to save all creation. i find it thought provocking and just plain beautiful.
Once apon a time there was a good and kind king who had a great kingdom with many cities. in one distant city , some poeple took advantage of the freedom the king gave them and started doing evil.they profited by their evil and began to fear that the kingwould interver and thro them into jail. Eventually these rebeles seethed with hatred for the king. they convinced the citythat everyone was better offwithout the king, and the city declared its independance from the kingdom.
but soon with everyone doing whatever they wanted, disorder reigned in the city.there was violence,hatred,lying , oppression,murder,rape,slavery, and fear.The king thought: what should i do?if i take my army and conquer the city by force, the people will fight against me and i'll have to kill so msany of them, and the rest will only submit through fear or intimidation, which will make them hate me and all i stand for evenmore.how does that help them--to be either dead or imprisoned or secretly seething with rage?but if i leave them alone , they'll destroy each other , and i breaks my heart to think of the pain they're causing and experiencing.
so the king did something very surprising. he took off his robed and dressses in the rags of a homeless wanderer. incognito, he entered the city and began living in a vacant lot lear a garbage dump. he took up a trade--fixing brokenpottery and furniture. whenever people came to him, his kindness and goodness and fairness and respect were so striking that they would linger just to be in his presence. they would tell him their fears and questions, and ask for advice. he told them that the rebels had fooled them, and that the true king had a better way to live , which he exemplified and taught . one by one then two by two then by the hundreds people began to have confidance in him and live in his way.
their influence spread to others, and the movement grew untill the whole city regretted its rebellion and wanted to return to the kingdom again. but ashamed of their horrible mistake , they were afraid to approch the king,believing that he would certanly destroy them for their rebellion. but the king-in-disguise told them the good news: he himself was the king, and he loved them. he held nothing against them, and he welcomed them back into his kingdom, having accomished by a gently, subtle presence what could have never been accomplished through brute force.
-erin
it sums up how eastern orthodox church sees the importance of the incarnation. in jesus god came as a human to save all creation. i find it thought provocking and just plain beautiful.
Once apon a time there was a good and kind king who had a great kingdom with many cities. in one distant city , some poeple took advantage of the freedom the king gave them and started doing evil.they profited by their evil and began to fear that the kingwould interver and thro them into jail. Eventually these rebeles seethed with hatred for the king. they convinced the citythat everyone was better offwithout the king, and the city declared its independance from the kingdom.
but soon with everyone doing whatever they wanted, disorder reigned in the city.there was violence,hatred,lying , oppression,murder,rape,slavery, and fear.The king thought: what should i do?if i take my army and conquer the city by force, the people will fight against me and i'll have to kill so msany of them, and the rest will only submit through fear or intimidation, which will make them hate me and all i stand for evenmore.how does that help them--to be either dead or imprisoned or secretly seething with rage?but if i leave them alone , they'll destroy each other , and i breaks my heart to think of the pain they're causing and experiencing.
so the king did something very surprising. he took off his robed and dressses in the rags of a homeless wanderer. incognito, he entered the city and began living in a vacant lot lear a garbage dump. he took up a trade--fixing brokenpottery and furniture. whenever people came to him, his kindness and goodness and fairness and respect were so striking that they would linger just to be in his presence. they would tell him their fears and questions, and ask for advice. he told them that the rebels had fooled them, and that the true king had a better way to live , which he exemplified and taught . one by one then two by two then by the hundreds people began to have confidance in him and live in his way.
their influence spread to others, and the movement grew untill the whole city regretted its rebellion and wanted to return to the kingdom again. but ashamed of their horrible mistake , they were afraid to approch the king,believing that he would certanly destroy them for their rebellion. but the king-in-disguise told them the good news: he himself was the king, and he loved them. he held nothing against them, and he welcomed them back into his kingdom, having accomished by a gently, subtle presence what could have never been accomplished through brute force.
-erin
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Monday, October 16, 2006
Disconnect?
Ring Ring. "Yes hello mouth? this is the head calling.i was just wondering why you never say what i want you to?"
Saturday, October 14, 2006
thoughts &questions Prt 3
it's now midnight. and my father is bugging me to go to bed and i know i should but i need to finnish. i need to get these thoughts out so that i can have some peace.
Love.
something that has brought up questions for me for years and i don't think that they will ever end.
What is love to me?
is it a feeling?and emotion?
a commitment?
a risk?
something only in our dreams?
is it something that only some people find?
is it something you "find" at all?
and what does it truly meen to love?
does true love never fail? how bout love at first sight?
and falling out of love?
should love hurt?
how do you know is you really do love someone?
does anybody have perfect love?
why does god love me?
and why would anybody?
i had a conversation with someone once and it ended with me being rather upset and with more questions. this person told me that people use the word love to flippently.
do i agree with that?
in some whys i do but at the same time i srtuggle with it. i think every body needs to be told that they are loved.but is it false?
-
i've blocked myself of from love and now i have trouble loving people without guilt, i'm trying despertly to let people in to letthem get to know me which is one reason i made this blog. i try to wirte in this like i would a diary forcing my self to let people know what i'm thinking instead of putting up a wall. ( thank you jonathon for showing me exactly what i was doing)
i'm now trying to let peple in.
-- i had a row with my borther this summer and one of the things that i didn't want to hear (thats true) is the fact that as soon as their is somethingk wrong i shut off from the world.
i have forced myself not to love because i don't want to get hurt again ( i'm not talking about romantic love) i was so concerned that someone would let me down that i stopped myself from loving.
-recently i had a conversationg with someone about that very topic and they said this.: "The beautiful thing about love is , there are no guarantees"the thing that makes love special is the fast that it's a risk..we don't know what will happen ommorow or the next day.but if we chosse to love it can make a world of difference.
i guess the only constant love is gods.he perfects our love.god is the only one that can truly love perfectly.
now that brings up more quesions.
---
what is perfect?
we can't possible know what perfec tis because we have never experienced anything compleatly perfect. infac ti'm amazed that it's evern a word.if we knew what perfect was thenevery sigle person would agree.there would be no doubt about it. and if we knew what perfec twas there would immediatly be people allover the world trying to make it a reality.
now here's when what i just said comes into conflict with my faith. we do have an example of perfect , jesus.so we as christians should be doing more to make perfect happen!
so here's my last question for tonight. What is my perfect?what is yours?
---
what all these questions make me think about is the story that Wright used in his book " simply christian"
there was world compleatly ruled by a dicator..not a bad one but he never the less had compleat control.but allthrough the world there was these abnormally springs of water that would pop up.it made the dictator feel less in control so he took controll be paving the intire world. cement comering every where other thab designated wells. And he was in controll. but then something becang to happen the water began to fose it's way out and shot out every where.
this story is basically supposed to be a parralle to our world . we take contolr of our lives by paving it over blocking out questions. but everntually the questiongs break through and pop put every where. Thats where i'm at now.
well more on the story later.
-erin
Love.
something that has brought up questions for me for years and i don't think that they will ever end.
What is love to me?
is it a feeling?and emotion?
a commitment?
a risk?
something only in our dreams?
is it something that only some people find?
is it something you "find" at all?
and what does it truly meen to love?
does true love never fail? how bout love at first sight?
and falling out of love?
should love hurt?
how do you know is you really do love someone?
does anybody have perfect love?
why does god love me?
and why would anybody?
i had a conversation with someone once and it ended with me being rather upset and with more questions. this person told me that people use the word love to flippently.
do i agree with that?
in some whys i do but at the same time i srtuggle with it. i think every body needs to be told that they are loved.but is it false?
-
i've blocked myself of from love and now i have trouble loving people without guilt, i'm trying despertly to let people in to letthem get to know me which is one reason i made this blog. i try to wirte in this like i would a diary forcing my self to let people know what i'm thinking instead of putting up a wall. ( thank you jonathon for showing me exactly what i was doing)
i'm now trying to let peple in.
-- i had a row with my borther this summer and one of the things that i didn't want to hear (thats true) is the fact that as soon as their is somethingk wrong i shut off from the world.
i have forced myself not to love because i don't want to get hurt again ( i'm not talking about romantic love) i was so concerned that someone would let me down that i stopped myself from loving.
-recently i had a conversationg with someone about that very topic and they said this.: "The beautiful thing about love is , there are no guarantees"the thing that makes love special is the fast that it's a risk..we don't know what will happen ommorow or the next day.but if we chosse to love it can make a world of difference.
i guess the only constant love is gods.he perfects our love.god is the only one that can truly love perfectly.
now that brings up more quesions.
---
what is perfect?
we can't possible know what perfec tis because we have never experienced anything compleatly perfect. infac ti'm amazed that it's evern a word.if we knew what perfect was thenevery sigle person would agree.there would be no doubt about it. and if we knew what perfec twas there would immediatly be people allover the world trying to make it a reality.
now here's when what i just said comes into conflict with my faith. we do have an example of perfect , jesus.so we as christians should be doing more to make perfect happen!
so here's my last question for tonight. What is my perfect?what is yours?
---
what all these questions make me think about is the story that Wright used in his book " simply christian"
there was world compleatly ruled by a dicator..not a bad one but he never the less had compleat control.but allthrough the world there was these abnormally springs of water that would pop up.it made the dictator feel less in control so he took controll be paving the intire world. cement comering every where other thab designated wells. And he was in controll. but then something becang to happen the water began to fose it's way out and shot out every where.
this story is basically supposed to be a parralle to our world . we take contolr of our lives by paving it over blocking out questions. but everntually the questiongs break through and pop put every where. Thats where i'm at now.
well more on the story later.
-erin
Thoughts and Questions prt 2
more questions.
Anther thing i've been thinking about is how i preceive god.Jon gave us this thing a that had a listof things that we may possibly discribe god as. it it too got me thinking. What do i really belive? who is god to me.?and how has that image of god i have changed over the years?
i can't quite rember how i pictured god when i was a kid beacue i never really quesioned it. it was just part of who i was. then i thought of god as more like a friend like somone walking beside me ready to listen anytime. And then i got mad and my image of him changed to more of a god who wound up the clock at the beginning of time and is now watching us suffer. but that changed to. i once again believe in a personal god who cares and participates in our everyday lives.but i think i've come to realise that i'm never gonna get the image of gods perfect because i'm so simple and god is so complex i cannot even begin to understand him. The only thing i know for sure is i'm not praying to the pictures of white, long brown hair and bearded jesus that are hung up every where you go.
-erin
Anther thing i've been thinking about is how i preceive god.Jon gave us this thing a that had a listof things that we may possibly discribe god as. it it too got me thinking. What do i really belive? who is god to me.?and how has that image of god i have changed over the years?
i can't quite rember how i pictured god when i was a kid beacue i never really quesioned it. it was just part of who i was. then i thought of god as more like a friend like somone walking beside me ready to listen anytime. And then i got mad and my image of him changed to more of a god who wound up the clock at the beginning of time and is now watching us suffer. but that changed to. i once again believe in a personal god who cares and participates in our everyday lives.but i think i've come to realise that i'm never gonna get the image of gods perfect because i'm so simple and god is so complex i cannot even begin to understand him. The only thing i know for sure is i'm not praying to the pictures of white, long brown hair and bearded jesus that are hung up every where you go.
-erin
So many thoughts & questions prt 1.
My mind is racing. my head is full. i can think straight because so many things are going on in my head. obessive thinking is my problem.compulsive?i don't know.I cannot even begin to fully explain everything but i need to try to get some of this out. deep breath.
*please skip this post if rambling is something you have a problem with.
so the last ..year has brought me many questions but the last few months i have been over whelmed. this week in particular.and i'm not even sure where to start.
this week at youth group we looked at the story of the prodical son.(luke 5:8) i've heard this story over and over i could recite it if i had to.but the other night i saw it in a whole new light.now i know what i'm about to go on abpout has been said by many people all through the ages but please bare with me as i do it once again.
i feel like that son.reading that story i can now relate. i've taken what the father gave me and scwandered it.i ran off and wasted evey thing. and when i was gone i was left empty and basically eating with the pigs.now i'm coming to my sences and realizing that i'm hungry but if i were home with my father i would be full.so i guess now i'm going home i can see the father in the distance but i'm stuck. my feet won't move.my heart tells them to go my my head is to busy questioning itself to make them move.
now many people leave it at that.they compare themselves to the son and drop it. but thats where i saw the story in a new way. it's not about the son or me it's about the father. maybe the story should be titles "the forgiving father"the father is running with his arms wide open just longing for the son to come home. and when the son finnaly makes his heas listen to his heart and embrasses the father.the father instantaniouly forgives the son.this takes the breath from me.what i wonderful promise!
in the bible i was reading form at youth there was a set of bible study questions. here is one of them.
look at your life, where are you?
1. at home but not very happy
2.in the far off country
3.coming to your sences
4.on the way home but not sure what you'll find
5.just arrived and feeling great
6.enjoying the party
this question made me think and i encourage you to think about it too. but it also brought up the question : do we get to the party in this life?or is heaven the party?.
well i'm coming home but i'm not sure what i'll find but i sure hope that the partys not to far off.
-erin
*please skip this post if rambling is something you have a problem with.
so the last ..year has brought me many questions but the last few months i have been over whelmed. this week in particular.and i'm not even sure where to start.
this week at youth group we looked at the story of the prodical son.(luke 5:8) i've heard this story over and over i could recite it if i had to.but the other night i saw it in a whole new light.now i know what i'm about to go on abpout has been said by many people all through the ages but please bare with me as i do it once again.
i feel like that son.reading that story i can now relate. i've taken what the father gave me and scwandered it.i ran off and wasted evey thing. and when i was gone i was left empty and basically eating with the pigs.now i'm coming to my sences and realizing that i'm hungry but if i were home with my father i would be full.so i guess now i'm going home i can see the father in the distance but i'm stuck. my feet won't move.my heart tells them to go my my head is to busy questioning itself to make them move.
now many people leave it at that.they compare themselves to the son and drop it. but thats where i saw the story in a new way. it's not about the son or me it's about the father. maybe the story should be titles "the forgiving father"the father is running with his arms wide open just longing for the son to come home. and when the son finnaly makes his heas listen to his heart and embrasses the father.the father instantaniouly forgives the son.this takes the breath from me.what i wonderful promise!
in the bible i was reading form at youth there was a set of bible study questions. here is one of them.
look at your life, where are you?
1. at home but not very happy
2.in the far off country
3.coming to your sences
4.on the way home but not sure what you'll find
5.just arrived and feeling great
6.enjoying the party
this question made me think and i encourage you to think about it too. but it also brought up the question : do we get to the party in this life?or is heaven the party?.
well i'm coming home but i'm not sure what i'll find but i sure hope that the partys not to far off.
-erin
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Look at my heart again
Look at the mess
I've got it in
I'm trying to trust in You
To know that you'll see me through
Through my pride
Through my shame
Into Your love
Into Your grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see Your face
And I'm running straight to You Because
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
To break this division
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
Erase it and bring us together again
My life's like an open book
Nothing is hidden when you look
You break through my boundaries
Revealing my insecurities
But through my pride
And through my shameYou show me love
You show me grace
I'm not looking back Till I see your face
And I'm running straight to you
Because
Here I am saying I need you
I know I need you
Here I am, I'm coming to meet you
Cause I want to see you
Look at the mess
I've got it in
I'm trying to trust in You
To know that you'll see me through
Through my pride
Through my shame
Into Your love
Into Your grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see Your face
And I'm running straight to You Because
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
To break this division
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
Erase it and bring us together again
My life's like an open book
Nothing is hidden when you look
You break through my boundaries
Revealing my insecurities
But through my pride
And through my shameYou show me love
You show me grace
I'm not looking back Till I see your face
And I'm running straight to you
Because
Here I am saying I need you
I know I need you
Here I am, I'm coming to meet you
Cause I want to see you
Monday, October 02, 2006
Saturday, September 30, 2006
surpirse visit
Oh the blessings that i've had.Amanda fricker and mike came by today for a visit..it's just what i needed.
Erin grace
(peace&grace)
Erin grace
(peace&grace)
And the rain poured down.
yesterday it rained and rained. I stood out side until it stopped.and it was when i was jumping in a puddle soaked to the bone with my best friend that i relised that i'm only 16.for so long i've been frustrated with my self trying to make myself older than i am.And it worked.i lost my youth i lost myself and i also lost sight of god.
so here's the truth friends. you may hfave noticed through my posts that i was struggling..but for the most part i've just continued my life not telling anyone the truth.i've actually lied.. more like pretended. i pretended to be a christian.singing songs and going to church.but if someone had asked me directly if i was a christian i don't know what i would have said.the last few months i've grown closer and closer to being a agnosic than ever befor.i stoped believing i was angry.anger consumed me. anger for god..for myself and the mess i'd made of my life so far.And angry with the world.
i blamed of my lack of faith on some of the reading i've been doing latly.but deep down i know that the lack of faith didn't start with philosopy. it's just what i turned to when i couldn't make sence of what i did believe.
i refused to believe because i said "the world is too messed up for there to be a god that cares" i thought that maybe theres a god who created the wolrd and like a wind up clock let us go.doing nothing but watch us suffer. But o boy waas i wrong. i've relized that there are so many beautiful loving people in this world who genuinly care about me that the must be a god!
friends i thank you from the bottom of my heart for the prayers. and for the patience that you\ve had with me.you have been a gift.and i truly aprecite it.
so to get to the point.last night i rededicated my life to christ!and i feel like a load fell off my shoulders.
now i know that it's not going to be easy but i've learned this.. that doubting you faith is important..because if you never doubt...you have no faith. catch my drift? i'm sure that there will be times in my life that i will again turn from god beacause of doubt..but now i know that it is an essential element in truly finding the truth.
so today i started fresh i pulled out mybible fixed it up reduct taped the cover to hold the pages of my teen study bible together and held it there and for the first time in ages had a hunger for gods word.
another thing that i've been thinking about is a man named Victor. Victor has hiv Aides. and honestly i doin't even know if he's still alive.i met victor in a hospital in new york for termanlly ill patients most of them had aids.they were on their death beds. to quot myself from an old post.." i was walking through the hall with paul when he waved us into his room. The man was weak and you could tell it took all his strengh to lift his arms but the first thing he did was raise his arms and say " I love God". he was dying from aids. but he was absolutly beaming .we prayed with him then sang this song ( come unto me) . victor was trying to talk and lift his arms and was so happy. i couldn't grasp how someone that close to death could smile.But wait that isn't even the most amazing part! when we left the hospital we were talking to our guide about our expirences and we told her about victor.She got super excited and then told us that the day befor, the other half of our team had visited victor and he had given his life to christ.When they saw him the first time he was so sick that he wasn't talking and couldn't move. But the VERY next day he was trying to talk and move and he was beaming. " If the day after this man DYING of aids was joyful than i can have that joy too!!and as victor found..that joy only comes from one thing. Jesus.
I believe in the sun
even when it is not shining.
I believe in love
even when I feel it not.
I believe in God
even when He is silent.
(written on a wall in a concentration camp)
well please keep me in your prayers.thankyou again.
Erin grace
(peace&grace)
so here's the truth friends. you may hfave noticed through my posts that i was struggling..but for the most part i've just continued my life not telling anyone the truth.i've actually lied.. more like pretended. i pretended to be a christian.singing songs and going to church.but if someone had asked me directly if i was a christian i don't know what i would have said.the last few months i've grown closer and closer to being a agnosic than ever befor.i stoped believing i was angry.anger consumed me. anger for god..for myself and the mess i'd made of my life so far.And angry with the world.
i blamed of my lack of faith on some of the reading i've been doing latly.but deep down i know that the lack of faith didn't start with philosopy. it's just what i turned to when i couldn't make sence of what i did believe.
i refused to believe because i said "the world is too messed up for there to be a god that cares" i thought that maybe theres a god who created the wolrd and like a wind up clock let us go.doing nothing but watch us suffer. But o boy waas i wrong. i've relized that there are so many beautiful loving people in this world who genuinly care about me that the must be a god!
friends i thank you from the bottom of my heart for the prayers. and for the patience that you\ve had with me.you have been a gift.and i truly aprecite it.
so to get to the point.last night i rededicated my life to christ!and i feel like a load fell off my shoulders.
now i know that it's not going to be easy but i've learned this.. that doubting you faith is important..because if you never doubt...you have no faith. catch my drift? i'm sure that there will be times in my life that i will again turn from god beacause of doubt..but now i know that it is an essential element in truly finding the truth.
so today i started fresh i pulled out mybible fixed it up reduct taped the cover to hold the pages of my teen study bible together and held it there and for the first time in ages had a hunger for gods word.
another thing that i've been thinking about is a man named Victor. Victor has hiv Aides. and honestly i doin't even know if he's still alive.i met victor in a hospital in new york for termanlly ill patients most of them had aids.they were on their death beds. to quot myself from an old post.." i was walking through the hall with paul when he waved us into his room. The man was weak and you could tell it took all his strengh to lift his arms but the first thing he did was raise his arms and say " I love God". he was dying from aids. but he was absolutly beaming .we prayed with him then sang this song ( come unto me) . victor was trying to talk and lift his arms and was so happy. i couldn't grasp how someone that close to death could smile.But wait that isn't even the most amazing part! when we left the hospital we were talking to our guide about our expirences and we told her about victor.She got super excited and then told us that the day befor, the other half of our team had visited victor and he had given his life to christ.When they saw him the first time he was so sick that he wasn't talking and couldn't move. But the VERY next day he was trying to talk and move and he was beaming. " If the day after this man DYING of aids was joyful than i can have that joy too!!and as victor found..that joy only comes from one thing. Jesus.
I believe in the sun
even when it is not shining.
I believe in love
even when I feel it not.
I believe in God
even when He is silent.
(written on a wall in a concentration camp)
well please keep me in your prayers.thankyou again.
Erin grace
(peace&grace)
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Monday, September 25, 2006
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Friday, September 22, 2006
living on memories
I like to dream yes, yes,
right between my sound machine
On a cloud of sound
I drift in the night
Any place it goes is right
Goes far, flies near,
to the stars away from here
Well, you don't know what we can find
Why don't you come with me little girl
On a magic carpet ride
You don't know what we can see
Why don't you tell your dreams to me
Fantasy will set you free
Close your eyes girl
Look inside girl
Let the sound take you away
Last night I held Aladdin's lamp
And so I wished that I could stay
Before the thing could answer me
Well, someone came and took the lamp away
I looked around, a lousy candle's all I found
Well, you don't know what we can find
Why don't you come with me little girl
On a magic carpet ride
Well, you don't know what we can see
Why don't you tell your dreams to me
Fantasy will set you freeClose your eyes girl
Look inside girl
Let the sound take you away
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Monday, September 18, 2006
Catchy music..And foreign languages
So I've been listening to this song lately and it's one of those songs that is so darn catchy that you can't help but sing along but this one was in a language that is compleatly foreign to me. Then i got curious ,what was it that i was singing along to? what did these strange words mean? Well i turned to my good friend google and found out. So it turns out that i have been worshipping a hindu god. haha.
-erin
-erin
Friday, September 15, 2006
The myers brigg prayer.haha
ISTJ: Lord help me to relax about insignificant details beginning tomorrow at 11:41.23 am e.s.t.
ISTP: God help me to consider people’s feelings, even if most of them ARE hypersensitive.
ESTP: God help me to take responsibility for my own actions, even though they’re usually NOT my fault.
ESTJ: God, help me to not try to RUN everything. But, if You need some help, just ask.
ISFJ: Lord, help me to be more laid back and help me to do it EXACTLY right.
ISFP: Lord, help me to stand up for my rights (if you don’t mind my asking).
ESFP: God help me to take things more seriously, especially parties and dancing.
ESFJ: God give me patience, and I mean right NOW.INFJ: Lord help me not be a perfectionist. (did I spell that correctly?)
INFP: God, help me to finish everything I sta
ENFP: God,help me to keep my mind on one th-Look a bird-ing at a time.
ENFJ: God help me to do only what I can and trust you for the rest. Do you mind putting that in writing?
INTJ: Lord keep me open to others’ ideas, WRONG though they may be.
INTP: Lord help me be less independent, but let me do it my way.
ENTP: Lord help me follow established procedures today. On second thought, I’ll settle for a few minutes.
ENTJ: Lord, help me slow downandnotrushthroughwatIdo.Amen.
ISTP: God help me to consider people’s feelings, even if most of them ARE hypersensitive.
ESTP: God help me to take responsibility for my own actions, even though they’re usually NOT my fault.
ESTJ: God, help me to not try to RUN everything. But, if You need some help, just ask.
ISFJ: Lord, help me to be more laid back and help me to do it EXACTLY right.
ISFP: Lord, help me to stand up for my rights (if you don’t mind my asking).
ESFP: God help me to take things more seriously, especially parties and dancing.
ESFJ: God give me patience, and I mean right NOW.INFJ: Lord help me not be a perfectionist. (did I spell that correctly?)
INFP: God, help me to finish everything I sta
ENFP: God,help me to keep my mind on one th-Look a bird-ing at a time.
ENFJ: God help me to do only what I can and trust you for the rest. Do you mind putting that in writing?
INTJ: Lord keep me open to others’ ideas, WRONG though they may be.
INTP: Lord help me be less independent, but let me do it my way.
ENTP: Lord help me follow established procedures today. On second thought, I’ll settle for a few minutes.
ENTJ: Lord, help me slow downandnotrushthroughwatIdo.Amen.
Saturday, September 09, 2006
A poem I like.
Mirror, Mirror
A young spring-tender girl
combed her joyous hair
'You are very ugly' said the mirror.
But,
on her lips hung
a smile of dove-secret loveliness,
for only that morning had not
the blind boy said,
'You are beautiful'?
--spike Milligan
A young spring-tender girl
combed her joyous hair
'You are very ugly' said the mirror.
But,
on her lips hung
a smile of dove-secret loveliness,
for only that morning had not
the blind boy said,
'You are beautiful'?
--spike Milligan
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
The blog world. Seperate from all else ?
i've been noticing latly that it seems like you can have tottaly different realtionships with people through blogs and often none loff the stuff you blog about comes up in other conversations.
just a thought.
just a thought.
Monday, September 04, 2006
For all who have died in the hope of the resurrection, and for all the departed, let us pray to the Lord.
Lord, have mercy.
The crocodile hunter is dead.And everyone knows.it's on the news and the internet.people are talking about it on the phone, msn, blogs ect. But my question is "what about the other approximate 146,000 people dying in the world per day from varying causes.Who's gonna talk about them? should we all put roses on our msn names to show respect?
33,000 children die from poverty daily.Every day, more than 16,000 children die from hunger-related causes--one child every five seconds.Every year, nearly 11 million children die before they reach their fifth birthday. Almost all of these deaths occur in developing countries, 3/4 of them in sub-Saharan Africa and South Asia, the two regions that also suffer from the highest rates of hunger and malnutritionEvery year, more than 20 million low-birth weight babies are born in developing countries. These babies risk dying in infancy, while those who survive often suffer lifelong physical and cognitive disabilities. 25 million people have died from AIDS, which has caused more than 15 million children to lose at least one parent. 200,000 people died in a tsunami caused by an Asian earthquake in December.
i could go on and on.
Therefore we do not lose heart.Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.For our light and momentary troublesare achieving for us an eternal glorythat far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen,but on what is unseen.For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
Lord, have mercy.
The crocodile hunter is dead.And everyone knows.it's on the news and the internet.people are talking about it on the phone, msn, blogs ect. But my question is "what about the other approximate 146,000 people dying in the world per day from varying causes.Who's gonna talk about them? should we all put roses on our msn names to show respect?
33,000 children die from poverty daily.Every day, more than 16,000 children die from hunger-related causes--one child every five seconds.Every year, nearly 11 million children die before they reach their fifth birthday. Almost all of these deaths occur in developing countries, 3/4 of them in sub-Saharan Africa and South Asia, the two regions that also suffer from the highest rates of hunger and malnutritionEvery year, more than 20 million low-birth weight babies are born in developing countries. These babies risk dying in infancy, while those who survive often suffer lifelong physical and cognitive disabilities. 25 million people have died from AIDS, which has caused more than 15 million children to lose at least one parent. 200,000 people died in a tsunami caused by an Asian earthquake in December.
i could go on and on.
Therefore we do not lose heart.Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.For our light and momentary troublesare achieving for us an eternal glorythat far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen,but on what is unseen.For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
thats the life of a PK
So my father is taking a month leave form work. i found this out resently and it was quite a surprise because my dad has worked every day of my life other than his much to short holiday once a year which is more often that not interupted.so when he told me the news i quickly thought that he would be home to spend some time with myfamily. my dad is a work-a-holic and i the only time he has to talk is at meals once in a blue moon and when he's driving. but even then he is always distracted.But instead of him being home this month he will be in different places on retreats...away from home.
.figures.
.figures.
Monday, August 28, 2006
i'm calling out to you.
friends. i need your prayers.i need your assurance. i need your patience. i need your help.i am not in a good time right now and being away from the ones that i am able to confide in and trust dosn't help.i 've never fought with my sister before(there is 14 years between us)..but in the last week it has been stressful to the breaking point.i'm hurt and i'm sure she is too.i need the patience to get through these last days .i'm tired , afraid and stressed. Thing that she's does when she's stressed are the things that stress me the most. And i know that i'm not the easiest person to live with either.this is a small glimps into some of the stuff that i am dealing with right now. I apoligize if i seem like i am hiding . hiding things that make me who i am.hiding from the people whom i trust the most.
right now what i need is not for you to tell me that it is gonna be ok . but you to be here with me when it's not.
friends here's the truth.i live behind a mask. a mask that tells people that i'm a happy go lucky person who is not easily angered and that is laid back. who has a perfect life a perfect family.and the truth is that i would love for everyone to go on believing those things.but the problem is that would be a lie to you and to myself.And i'm afraid that if i don't try to slowly break away the mask that it may get messy and you will all quickly realise who i am.so again i ask you for your prayers your assurance your patience. i need your help.
right now what i need is not for you to tell me that it is gonna be ok . but you to be here with me when it's not.
friends here's the truth.i live behind a mask. a mask that tells people that i'm a happy go lucky person who is not easily angered and that is laid back. who has a perfect life a perfect family.and the truth is that i would love for everyone to go on believing those things.but the problem is that would be a lie to you and to myself.And i'm afraid that if i don't try to slowly break away the mask that it may get messy and you will all quickly realise who i am.so again i ask you for your prayers your assurance your patience. i need your help.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Sunday, August 20, 2006
There's a rock in my shoe. well several.here's a start.sorry about the ranting nature of this post.
--> i'm tired because i didn't sleep at all last night.so now i feel sick.i miss my bed.i miss my dog. i miss camp medley more than anything.i'm pissed off.i havn't seen my friends in ages.there are no doors in this house.i can't escape.i really just want to go and climb up my favorite powerline and look down at the river valley.manatoba is flat.and boring.people have invaded my privace and over stepped on some things that should be left alone.
-->lord give me patience.
--> i'm tired because i didn't sleep at all last night.so now i feel sick.i miss my bed.i miss my dog. i miss camp medley more than anything.i'm pissed off.i havn't seen my friends in ages.there are no doors in this house.i can't escape.i really just want to go and climb up my favorite powerline and look down at the river valley.manatoba is flat.and boring.people have invaded my privace and over stepped on some things that should be left alone.
-->lord give me patience.
So i have just returned from my adventure in the sticks. AKA Pinawa manatoba. i visited for a couple of days with my aunt silvia and my uncle keith.so in a town a small as pinawa there is not that much to do other than....sailing which i rather enjoy. keith took me out on the good old A2 (arrowhead 2) for a sailing expedition which intaled being attacked by the youngest pirate i've ever laid eyes on and jumping off some rather high cliffs.the later was quite a thrill.we also witnessed a water plane crash...although since it was simply a model seaplane no one was injured haha.so other than sailing i went and picked veggies with my uncle...quite an experiance if you have a uncle like mine... i went for a hike with my aunt and drove keith's tracker over the front lawn.
so a little about my aunt and uncle.my aunt silvia is my father's sister and she has the most beautiful garden i have ever seen. like magazine garden. actually there are pictures of it in magazines . She is also a grade 2 teacher.
and my uncle well he's...excentric. and thats an understatment.he works at a plant that disposes of radio active materials.he's the one that makes sure that nothing is going to be harmful to people. sometimes i wonde if some radio active stuff got on his food..he is now the only person i know that has a full vegitable garden..on his roof.
Any way i am back with jenna yves and aidan for 9 more days then i'm flying back home!see ya in a few days
Erin.
so a little about my aunt and uncle.my aunt silvia is my father's sister and she has the most beautiful garden i have ever seen. like magazine garden. actually there are pictures of it in magazines . She is also a grade 2 teacher.
and my uncle well he's...excentric. and thats an understatment.he works at a plant that disposes of radio active materials.he's the one that makes sure that nothing is going to be harmful to people. sometimes i wonde if some radio active stuff got on his food..he is now the only person i know that has a full vegitable garden..on his roof.
Any way i am back with jenna yves and aidan for 9 more days then i'm flying back home!see ya in a few days
Erin.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Friday, August 11, 2006
Thursday, August 03, 2006
There is no place like the maritimes. the view from the plane was amazing! And were my prayers answered or what! i was really nervous but on the flight to saint john but a lady with 2 kids sat beside me.. she turned out to be a flight attentant.she evenshowed me exactly were i had to go.
N.B landscape is beautiful
Toronto is more smoggy than i remember
and maniatoba is well..flat
anyway visiting with the family is great and sometime soon i will put up some pics.
Erin
N.B landscape is beautiful
Toronto is more smoggy than i remember
and maniatoba is well..flat
anyway visiting with the family is great and sometime soon i will put up some pics.
Erin
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Fairwell to the maritimes.
My flight leaves in a few hours! I have a few hours in toronto Then off to winnipeg I go!
See you in september.
erin
See you in september.
erin
Sunday, July 30, 2006
This is sad.I meen pathetic.it's sunday afternoon and already i want to go back to camp.i miss it. I can't believe i'm saying this but i miss the D-hall where there is about 4 different worship songs being sung at the same time almost without end. I went to church today and ,even with the praise band playing, i felt as if the church was dead. maybe thats what chapel at medley does to you ..make you realize what church and worship can be. Now i'm not saying that camp medley is the only place that happens cause that would be foolish. Camp medley is not a "magic" place as i once thought it was, but simply a place in the middle of nowhere that many young ,on fire for God, christians gather during the summer months. Anyway i need to stop reminiscing and do something.
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