i wish i was a child again

what is going on?
where has the time gone?
i can't seem to wrap my head around the things that change in such a short time.
i just found out that one of my best friends from when i was 10 or so is pregnant. i can't seem to get it.
how did things change?

ohh there are days that i wish i was a child again.

please keep this friend of mine in your prayers.

-erin

Psalm 51:10
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
amen.

so i was thinking again about how awsome god is to have created the universe but then out of no where i started singing yet another song:
I have a maker
He formed my heart,
before even time began
My life was in his hands
He knows my name
He knows my every thought,
He sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call
I have a father,
he calls me his own
He'll never leave me,
no matter where I go
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call
He hears me when I call

this song sums up just what i'm thinking and prasing god for right now. God made such a wonderful creation and yet he stills knows ME! wow well i just find that so hard to understand yet so wonderful. i thought i share that with you.

-erin

Last night i didn't sleep much i was up allnight reading, thinking and staring at the stars from my bedroom window. And it hit me how awsome the creation is! a huge universe so huge that i cannot even begin to comprehend.i was looking at the stars thinking and i started to think about how far away the stars are. if we look at something 5 lightyears away we are really seeing the past.and if we could see way out into a distant gallexy let us say 2 million lightyear away we are really seeing what happend 2 million years ago!that even before the world began! Our universe is so great that our creator well their are no words that begin to explain.then theirs the fact that even now our world is still expanding..it's consently changing and getting greater! now on this many of us may be on different pages but i personally belive that you can be a christian and be a creationist and still belive in the Big Bang theory. so lets say that god created the world with a "big bang" and the universe is still expanding and so logiclly somday it will be so great that it will collaps and shrink back down again to that ball of gas. that brigns up the question: is that what god meens by a new heaven and a new earth? but that also brings up another question: has it happened before. of course we cannot possibly know for sure because all life would be desroyed in the collaps other than primal elements. i don't know what i think about that possiblity but somewhere within me something is saying no. this is the first time.
any way i encourage you to take the time to simply stare at the stars and stand in awe of our awsome creator!


Lord Of all creation
Of water, earth, and sky
The heavens are
Your tabernacle
Glory to the Lord on high
God of wonders
beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares
Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth
Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light
When I stumble in the darkness
I will call Your name by night
God of wonders
beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares
Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
God of wonders
beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
Precious Lord reveal Your heart to me
Father holy, holy
The universe declares
Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth

this story from the fourth centry but is retold in brian mclaren's book :A generous orthodoxy.
it sums up how eastern orthodox church sees the importance of the incarnation. in jesus god came as a human to save all creation. i find it thought provocking and just plain beautiful.

Once apon a time there was a good and kind king who had a great kingdom with many cities. in one distant city , some poeple took advantage of the freedom the king gave them and started doing evil.they profited by their evil and began to fear that the kingwould interver and thro them into jail. Eventually these rebeles seethed with hatred for the king. they convinced the citythat everyone was better offwithout the king, and the city declared its independance from the kingdom.
but soon with everyone doing whatever they wanted, disorder reigned in the city.there was violence,hatred,lying , oppression,murder,rape,slavery, and fear.The king thought: what should i do?if i take my army and conquer the city by force, the people will fight against me and i'll have to kill so msany of them, and the rest will only submit through fear or intimidation, which will make them hate me and all i stand for evenmore.how does that help them--to be either dead or imprisoned or secretly seething with rage?but if i leave them alone , they'll destroy each other , and i breaks my heart to think of the pain they're causing and experiencing.
so the king did something very surprising. he took off his robed and dressses in the rags of a homeless wanderer. incognito, he entered the city and began living in a vacant lot lear a garbage dump. he took up a trade--fixing brokenpottery and furniture. whenever people came to him, his kindness and goodness and fairness and respect were so striking that they would linger just to be in his presence. they would tell him their fears and questions, and ask for advice. he told them that the rebels had fooled them, and that the true king had a better way to live , which he exemplified and taught . one by one then two by two then by the hundreds people began to have confidance in him and live in his way.
their influence spread to others, and the movement grew untill the whole city regretted its rebellion and wanted to return to the kingdom again. but ashamed of their horrible mistake , they were afraid to approch the king,believing that he would certanly destroy them for their rebellion. but the king-in-disguise told them the good news: he himself was the king, and he loved them. he held nothing against them, and he welcomed them back into his kingdom, having accomished by a gently, subtle presence what could have never been accomplished through brute force.

-erin